PGP / SPD My story:

  Image reads: "One of the biggest mistakes in life is to allow yourself to be recruited by someone to hate another human being who has never wronged you. Only fools inherit other people's enemies as some weird sign of loyalty. - the mind unleashed" Think for yourself. Do your own research. Don't people please to the point of losing yourself. Don't hate people who haven't wronged you unless there are extenuating circumstances (they abused your friend etc) The people stabbing them in the back right now and causing hate campaigns will do the exact same thing to you as soon as you're no longer 'beneficial' to them. Stay out of this schoolyard mindset and just start to focus on the positives and try and actually ENJOY and appreciate life. S. Xoxo Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷 ✨  @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡ 🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷

So as I'm a fellow 'dullard' in all the Dull Men's and Dull Women's groups on Facebook, I have an interest in a lot of things others would probably yawn at. Ahaha. I'm the neurodivergent that read the dictionary for fun lol as a kid, and with the progress of my Criminology Degree I decided to attend my home towns Council meeting. A new mayor was announced and they went over the itinerary and their agendas. I couldn't help but be fascinated by all of the old coats of arms and photographs on the walls and I would have loved to have had someone go through all of those including the mayor and mayoress pictures and told me all about them! Maybe one day ahaha. But, I sought help from two council men that were in attendance so I thought it best to thank them in person and show my appreciation for their support with my bulky waste fight with Durham County Council. When I first arrived I was shocked to see that my disability group was there, All Disabilities Matter a

Don't ask me how my star meter / popularity is blowing up like this! 467k popularity, but I'm definitely excited! 😊  Exciting times ahead for sure! ...if only I'd have got that job with EE I would be more financially secure and able to pursue more of my dreams and support fellow creatives even more, and yet a job I can do blindfolded didn't happen, so I guess maybe I was meant for other things and starting my website up and moving towards a sole tradership as my life is definitely speeding off in all aspects of creative avenues right now! The universe works in mysterious ways! Like I said, their loss, determination and hard work will always achieve results and I know my worth even if other companies fail to see it. Watch out cause there's definitely more to come from this northern lass!!! I'm only just getting started!! ✨✨✨ S.W..xoxo @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡ If the video doesn't play you can view it at: https://youtube.com/shorts/

Get involved in the production of this epic new movie Daggers Inn! https://www.facebook.com/share/p/5WhQmxfQHWrSHKnT/ https://rayafilms.com/funding-and-investment?fbclid=IwY2xjawCwHO9leHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHSmSL4WysiNrK1fN4Sv8AR__C6sgwaxlqz33HQ-67dGjs5oz5Wv-9b2xug_aem_AZ6B31LGcGyTYfoL8uJvLKQUQrH9IpUVP7Peh8RO4Pq4wqMRGxU3T9xOMW_DN-XsLCUtl5C-LPvMEnhRFkZY_kXE Both links provide more information! I'm an associate producer of this and I'm so excited about it! It features an amazing lady I know @misscharliebond (IG) and I did a shout out for it on the radio recently! It's by @rayafilmslondon (IG) so get involved, share as much as possible and become part of something awesome! -Sarah Wingfield  @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡ 🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷

After a huge fight for a rebooking, I've finally had news today, after having to go to two councilmen and an ombudsman, that Durham County Council has finally allowed me a rebook and that the mess that has been left in my garden RE: Bulky waste will finally be gone. I could cry. Seeing that every single day and having to deal with it impacted my mental health pretty badly and made me feel worse about my home when inside I'm making real progress with organising everything and decluttering. I can finally see major progress and it's keeping me determined to continue, but this whole fiasco with the bulky waste just put a huge dampner on everything and has had me feeling like a failure and getting angry at the furniture in my garden. I'm definitely ADHD because I have so many of those traits and it's so hard to explain to people because they aren't wired like you and don't understand. People don't understand how mental health and disabilities can be interlink

So I did! I braved it and I went on the radio to talk about my upcoming book and disability awareness. I did a shout out to Rayas Films London's movie Daggers Inn and where people can get involved with production! Talked about communication and social media too and how it can and has impacted communication in real life. Overall it was a good show and my canvas is going to be on their wall of fame! I'm just continuing working hard towards my goals and they've asked me back on! I'll be in the Newton News Newspaper this Friday and I keep fighting the good fight to raise awareness and I'm still volunteering for AGE UK. I finally feel like I'm moving forward in all the right ways and looking forward to college again in September! Small steps do achieve Big Goals!  KawaiiDollDecora 🩷 ✨  🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷

The problem is that people don't like honesty, they don't want things being pointed out to them, they want to stay in their bubble of what they think the world is like and anything and anyone that challenges that is worthy of attack, abuse or worse, in their eyes. I don't point out the patterns I see or the things I notice for fun, they're just observations, and if I feel they're damaging overall or adding to a stigma, I feel like I have every right to point them out. I never asked anyone to argue the toss with me, I never asked anyone to twist what I said to fit their own skewed narratives, but yet people will and do. People won't understand and it's not my job to try and get them to. All I can do is point out the issues I see and then whatever they take from that is theirs and theirs alone. Yet it's easier to drag someone through the mud than it is to see that they're correct with their observations. Just life, but if you want to change the world f

Well I did.. I was bedbound/housebound and thought I would d!3 soon... ...so thank you to myself and the universe for working through the most difficult aspects of life... We got here... And there's more to come... Sarah Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨  🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷

  Tune into Aycliffe Radio this Sunday the 12th May! I am so excited to announce I'm guest starring. ☺️ I'll be talking about the upcoming book on raising awareness of different disabilities and I'm still seeking people to contribute! You can see more about the book project on the website: www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk Hope to hear from more contributors soon! S. KawaiiDollDecora 🩷 ✨ 

It's so ridiculous when you get 'gang mentality' online. If adults behave this way you can't expect kids not to. I make valid points and people are welcome to disagree what I don't condone is abuse, name calling and hateful laugh reacts. I'm not your entertainment, people forget there are whole a$$ people behind the screens and real lives that are impacted by negative affiliations. This is not the only story that I've seen where cannabis needn't have been mentioned in the headline.  ..but like I said that's just my opinion and atleast I don't go around laugh reacting people to get a sadistic 'kick' to my weekend. I can't expect people who like to be abusive to care and I definitely can't expect everyone to understand. The online world is pathetic most days but today, it's made me ashamed to be from the same area as the people who can't see the issue here. If the bro was on PRESCRIPTION MEDS for pain whilst on the bike I do

 Mello Lotus (profile on Facebook) Girl been there, I've loved people who made me genuinely believe I deserve to be beaten up, I've fought for people who have abused me financially and physically, never again. I got taught a hellova lesson young and I've been trying to gain my balance in this world ever since! Other people and how they perceive you, portray you, belittle you, judge you, just tells you everything about them and nothing about you. Some people need to gain some information before opening their mouths. ...and even worse those that laugh or cause harm to you or lie or disbelieve you, you still hope they never end up in your shoes...  @KawaiiDollDecora #kindnessmatters 

I shared a post today about a man that chose to drive dangerously on an off road bike and killed a cyclist. 😥 Heartbreaking! 💔  Articles will be attached at the bottom of this post but this is a screenshot: Anyways my point got the attention of a dude in the wrong ways:  I wish people understood my points or asked for clarification: 🤣💀👀 Cannabis doesn't make people choose to drive off road bikes dangerously bro, that's a peoples choice thing so I don't know why they even needed to mention it in the article, oh wait , yes I do, because they will do their best to keep NEGATIVE affiliations with cannabis that actually impact peoples lives because people like me are prescribed it! I don't deserve external judgement from bs stigma and negative affiliations spoonfed to people, so forgive me if I want news to be more 'relevant'. But yea, I'm the 'doyle' clearly... Lmao.. 💀💀💀 (Name removed) tbh your profile had a lot of cool shii like pogz so if I ha

I've been watching a series that has caused a lot of controversy and confusion with people recently... I'm not convinced we have the full story and there's just so much that for me, doesn't add up on either side. My working theory is, either they're both very unhinged people trying to make the most of what they can in life... Or it's a set up .. ... in the interview with Piers Morgan, she said "untrue facts" now facts are factual, not untrue...  Then she referred to her online tirade as stalkers as opposed to trolls or just people (being nosey) in general, she contradicted herself numerous times to have a photographic memory and I know he tried pushing her and pressing her buttons and it did get her flustered but to be honest I think it's two unhealed and unhinged people that have met and then Netflix accepted thr show and this has happened... I honestly don't know anymore after watching that, I'll have to rewatch it a lot of times before I

This is a question I ask myself every day, and the answer is simple. They can't make money off it. ..yet anyway... ..is my working theory. If they're paid to promote then they will but when it comes to stigma and the media they are pretty much 'best friend's. I'm talking Cannabis!  Personally, Mines delivered legally right to my door and is prescription so isn't illegal, it's also 20% thc and is the reason I'm still alive and the reason I'm now out of my wheelchair. Like all things, they can be abused. But you'd think someone who writes for a newspaper would be able to create a factually correct report, and yet they fail to word it factually. THC is legal with a prescription in England.  Maybe speak to people who actually know about Cannabis before you write up a story, so THC isn't illegal in those instances. Tbh I don't understand why it's still even illegal when prescription meds, alcohol and tobacco have way more adverse side affe

 "It's an artists duty to reflect the times in which we live." -Nina Simone. ❤️ I receive a lot of controversial opinions about the way I am so honest, or very 'wordy', I talk to a lot of different people from different backgrounds and gather perspectives and sometimes my brain focuses on one point to analyse said perspectives to analyse myself for self-improvement. Something it's just always done.  I can see the sides I've gathered and the different perspectives and I can understand those who care wish to help me, but I'm just the way I am. If I could have changed it by now I wouldn't have scars on my arms for previously hating how I can't change certain aspects of myself. I'm definitely neurospicy, but with or without labels, other people's views are their views, I focus on working towards my goals and 'surviving' what has become of society. I volunteered again yesterday and it reminded me of when I was a young girl and had a

I've been working on a new project and if it goes ahead then I could earn some much needed money from my art. So bear with me if I'm not online much this week there's deadlines I have to meet on four projects now and the paid one takes priority, I'll get back to the others on the 12th, unless something changes or the work falls through of course. I also got access randomly to my other page that Facebook has had in some Internet wormhole for like three years lmao... (/KawaiiDollDecora is the old page...) ...I was still bedbound / housebound when I had the page and I scrolled through a lot of posts where i was trying to entertain myself with music and being weird and strange lmao 🤣 so yea cringe worthy definitely the top ten! ...so anyways I've had to go through everything and remove most weirdness lol to set it up for my Kawaii Doll Decora business now. I've lost all the followers I had on that account, or they've left Facebook, a lot of people are moving aw

 How do you...? How do you explain when you're feeling alone  How do you ask for help? How do you use words that will land correctly? Because my navigation systems failing. ...and crash! How do you uphold boundaries, Whilst still bending over backwards for those you love, How do you end up crying alone, When you try so hard to be loved? How do you end up doing the things you needed help to do, how do you word things in a deaf world when people claim you're the one talking too much? I silence my needs and build up my walls, And barricade myself in. I know I can still get things done, whether or not others are helping. I isolate and try to make sense of the world and the forever changing social etiquette, I continue through exhaustion and keep up my responsibilities, I fight for everything I manage to get. My dog needs walking, I rely on others, they bail every time, my dog brings me a muzzle at half past nine and I cannot say no to him. It's dark outside and my fur baby is m

My son and I attended the local cafe meet today and we met a new member.☺️ As always the cafe and staff were amazing and my son can't speak highly enough of them, he was very impressed and thoroughly enjoyed his meal. Thank you to the staff for being so amazing! I managed to get some goodies posted and chose to wear black and white today with small colourful accessories. Had fun. A bro in a car laughed at me when he saw me and tbh I'd rather that than people giving me evil eyes lmao.  Yep! I'm definitely different and stand out but no apologies! ☺️ If I can make someone smile with my fashion then that's great! I've survived this long staying in my own little lane and making the best of the life I've got ahaha. I have seriously knackered myself though, ahaha... I walked most the way back out of town to suddenly remember my glasses needed to be collected and by the time I got there I was a beetroot lmao. 🤣 I felt sorry for the ladies but hey, I did amazingly! 🙌

It's one of the only things that makes me feel 'ick', dealing with people who are so cruel and malicious and judgemental... ...It's easy to sort things, but not everyone is willing, they like the power they feel I guess when they can postpone reconciliation or avoid thoughtfully communicating. They simply seem to want a verbal punching bag. I know I'm weird but most claim a cool weird *bites nails*, but one thing every day I'm thankful for is not turning out like that! I'd rather be me any day than be like them. Xx KawaiiDollDecora 🩷 ✨ 

 Update: I managed to get an X ray booked in next week so I can get my pelvis assessed in an asymmetrical position (stork x-rays) as SPD doesn't always show up in normal MRIs etc or symmetrical positions, although my gap is quite big, I don't know how much healing (if any) has happened or if the lower back is worse. This x-ray will allow me to see what needs to be done. There is a laparoscopic surgery that can fuse the symphysis pubis bones together without a plate, with sutures, which allows for more natural movements. I always do thorough research before approaching anything, it's good to know all possibilities and prepare for all outcomes. Wish me luck guys this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do this year!!! S.xoxo Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨  🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷✨🩷 Image reads: "Be the type of energy that no matter where you go, you always add value to the spaces and the lives around you."

 Ok so I've been brave, and I've asked for a GP consultation to see if I can re-apply for pelvic surgery because this is just getting worse and not better and although my disability impacts all of me the SPD and the gap in my pelvis is the main reason I can't walk very well and I'm in constant agony. If I can get the pelvic bones fused then it would open a lot of doors for me and take half of the obstacles away. I feel my pelvic bones digging in when I walk and things and it's excruciatingly painful. I'm being brave and I'm speaking with a lady doctor today to see about referrals because I was initially denied surgery before. With the way the systems going I don't want to end up homeless with a dislocated pelvis, I think I've walked on it long enough and it's about time someone in the hospital departments actually helped me! I've lost five stone and I'm more mobile and I just can't keep up because of it. Less pain is appreciated, I