PGP / SPD My story:

Well I was sent to hospital yesterday morning early hours by an out of hours urgent care DR. I had a female problem and increased bleeding and large clots etc.... (not very nice to state in a blog really is it, but anyway that was the problem.) The lady Dr that examined me was adamant I should try to have the examination without the use of gas and air, and didn't have my notes, so obviously didn't take me seriously and I am still suffering now! Internally I am in agony and she has made my SPD worse. I was crying during and after and got some gas and air but when it started working she took the gas and air off me. She then kept saying assertively which i did not appreciate, (my name) look at me! Look at me! Over and over. It got to the point where she said (my name) your pulse is normal! I replied, it has been normal before when I have been in agony with pain that it has taken morphine to reduce, and she kept saying (my name) look at me! over and over again. I then said you are ...

Well right now I am on lot's of morphine. 2x 10mg of morphine slow release morphgesic tablets in AM and again in PM can be increased to 3 AM and 3 PM if needed and 4x 5ml of Oramorph allowed every 4 hours daily = 40mg Morphine. I have had to stop breastfeeding to do this when baby was 14 days old and it's really got to me, had plenty of tears and just gutted, miss it sooo much... BUT I am more use to baby like this as it allows me to be a little more mobile sometimes. Mainly I am completely immobile and my pelvis is constantly locking up but atleast morphine is helping. I cannot lie on flat surfaces and had to sleep on sofa for ages! I am only just in bed now by piling lots of pillows up and i mean 7 pillows in total and another one making it 8 cushions that goes under my knees. My pelvis still locks as I have not had my O.T visit yet and the pillows keep falling over etc... so i need something else to aid me with the bed height or I am stuck immobile completely and cannot even...

On the 5th of August, a few things had happened since the enquiries. I am 23 weeks pregnant exactly today. My midwife was reluctant to make home visits in the first place and now I am seeing my consultant (who is now back from holiday) on Monday 10th August, my midwife has stated he will see to my ante-natal care. (Feel like her hands have been washed from me? ...yeah) So will I ever meet my midwife this pregnancy?? It is looking more and more unlikely. I still need to sort out a MatB1 form or something for SMP, get some stockings (as suggested by my Occupational Therapist 'E') and sort a few more things out like parentcraft/ante-natal classes. Luckily this time transport has been arranged via my GP for the 10th August. I will have to see what Consultant says in regards to referrals, as my midwife has said that PGP is more or less untreatable despite what page 77 of the NHS free book to all first time mothers states in black and white. So confused. I am anxious and scared as I...