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  A Stoner in the UK , written by disability advocate and legally prescribed medical-cannabis patient Sarah Wingfield, explores the reality of cannabis use from a UK disability and patient-rights perspective. Drawing upon lived experience, the book challenges outdated stigma, misconceptions and harmful stereotypes surrounding cannabis—particularly when it is used legally as prescribed medication. Medical-cannabis patients should not be treated like criminals, publicly embarrassed or forced to hide the medication they rely upon. Education, dignity and honest conversations matter. Available on Amazon: https://amzn.eu/d/1uHEqbv Sarah Wingfield  KawaiiDollDecora.uk #AStonerInTheUK #SarahWingfield #MedicalCannabis #CannabisIsMedicine #DisabilityAdvocacy #DisabledRights #PatientRights #EndTheStigma #MedicalCannabisUK

  We Are the Dark Carnival — So Start Acting Like Fam When people talk about celebrities, artists or anyone with a bit of notoriety, there’s often so much negativity attached to it. That isn’t what I want K•Doll to be remembered for. I want people to remember me as the hype girl. The weird creative clown with creativity running through her blood, but also someone who made people feel good about themselves. I want people to be able to say: “I remember when K•Doll told me my hair looked amazing.” “I remember when K•Doll told me to stay strong when I was struggling.” “I remember when K•Doll shared my music.” “I remember feeling like she was actually in my corner.” That’s the legacy I want. I already have some notoriety, and I actually downplay a hell of a lot of what I’ve achieved. I’ve been internationally published as an alternative model and built platforms across creative, professional and community spaces. But I don’t walk into a room screaming my CV at people. Most people who m...

When an Autistic Brain Can’t Just “Move On” Just because an autistic or otherwise neurodivergent person is still talking about something that hurt them does not automatically mean they are attention-seeking, dramatic, “obsessed,” or refusing to move on. Sometimes the brain genuinely has not finished processing what happened. Rumination is when the mind keeps circling back to the same event, conversation, question or feeling, often trying to understand it, make sense of it, work out what should have happened differently, or resolve something that still feels unfinished. For autistic people, this can be especially intense because several autistic traits can make painful or confusing situations much harder to mentally put down. Perseveration can make it difficult to disengage from a thought once it has become emotionally significant. Monotropic attention can cause the brain to focus very deeply on a small number of things at once. If one of those things is an unresolved conflict, injustic...

This Life Chose Me: Filmmaking, Acting and the Reality Behind the Glamour Something happened recently within one of my filmmaking circles that made me want to speak on something a little bigger than one bit of drama. Scare actors are not movie actors. That doesn’t mean scare acting isn’t valid, because it absolutely is. It takes confidence, timing, physicality, presence, improvisation and the ability to create an immediate reaction. But screen acting is a different discipline. Playing an actual character with history, flaws, emotions, relationships, motivations and a completely different personality is not as easy as good actors make it look. And good actors really do make it look easy. It isn’t. You can be filming one emotional scene in the morning, something completely different later, then return to that first emotional state from another angle and have to match the same performance all over again. Some scare actors can absolutely cross over and be brilliant screen actors too, but n...

You want to know real heartache? I had to sign my child over to my parents when he was two years old and undergoing cancer treatment because I believed that was the only way to protect him from a system I no longer trusted. So please do not tell me that children are never separated from their families without serious failings by the parent. I have lived through a situation where disability itself was treated as a reason to question my ability to parent. There are also families of disabled children who have spent years trying to explain unexplained bruising, fractures or other symptoms before an underlying condition is finally identified. When professionals misunderstand disability or rare medical conditions, the consequences for families can be devastating. In some cases, by the time a diagnosis is reached, relationships and placements have already been profoundly affected. My son was, and is, incredibly precious to me. I became disabled during pregnancy and used a wheelchair, includin...

Delulu until Successu 💅🏻✨ My 2026 Mantra. Finished this bright, chaotic little piece and I’m obsessed with how it came together. 💖 Leopard print nails, neon colours, sparkles, bubble lettering and pure delusional confidence. 😂✨ Sometimes you really do have to be a little bit delulu and keep believing in the thing until it finally starts becoming real. Keep creating. Keep dreaming. Keep going. 💅🏻 Sarah Wingfield KawaiiDollDecora 🎨💖 #KawaiiDollDecora #DeluluUntilSuccessu #DigitalArt #DigitalArtist #KawaiiArt #PopArt #NeonArt #ColourfulArt #BubbleLettering #NailArt #LeopardPrint #AlternativeArt #AltArtist #CuteArt #DoodleArt #Illustration #DigitalIllustration #IbisPaint #CreativeLife #ArtistLife #WomenWhoCreate #DisabledArtist #NeurodivergentArtist #ArtPost #KeepCreating #Delulu #Successu Alt text: Bright neon digital illustration with a vivid pink, blue and purple patterned background. In the centre is a hot-pink sticker-style shape outlined in yellow, featuring a stylised hand w...

Don’t talk to me about “real strength”. People don’t see the struggles that happen behind the screens. The pain. The breakdowns. The tears. The days where simply existing takes everything you have. People might look at disabled people and think we’re weak, but some of us are the toughest people you will ever meet — because we endure. We adapt. We stick around. We keep going, even when our bodies are screaming at us to stop. Tonight, I’m in tears. Peter made me a coffee, I’ve got the TV on, I’m doing my pain management, and the sofa has basically been my home for the last fortnight. My hair is knotted up. I’m exhausted. I don’t know how much longer this pain flare is going to last. And this is the side people don’t always see. Chronic illness and disability don’t just affect the person living with them. They affect relationships, plans, routines, independence, confidence, intimacy — and the people who love us too. They affect all those tiny, everyday things able-bodied people can often ...

When Support Becomes Separation: Why Families Need Help Before Harm: Every time I read another story about a mother having her newborn removed, it breaks my heart. I am not naïve about safeguarding. I know there are situations where children genuinely need protection, and when a child is at immediate risk, intervention is necessary. But safeguarding should not mean automatically jumping to separation when support, assessment, rehabilitation and practical help could make a family safe. I know what it feels like to be on the receiving end of systems that can be frightening, dismissive and deeply harmful when they get things wrong. I fought for my rights. I challenged decisions. I kept going. I did what I had to do. Reading about women who have not been so lucky absolutely destroys me. What especially troubles me is seeing somebody’s past used as though it permanently defines their future. A woman may have experienced trauma, addiction, mental ill-health, abuse, homelessness, exploitatio...

 @osmanayshea | Ayshea Osman | Mike Davies  Book Review: What He Couldn’t Take by Ayshea Osman — 8/10 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ What He Couldn’t Take by Ayshea Osman is a raw, reflective and deeply personal memoir about survival, the patterns that shape us, and the long, complicated process of reclaiming yourself after domestic abuse. Domestic abuse is a cause very close to my heart, and as a survivor myself, I read this book with a level of understanding that went beyond simply reviewing the words on the page. There are parts of Ayshea’s story that will feel painfully familiar to people who have lived through controlling, frightening or damaging relationships: the gradual erosion of boundaries, the instinct to keep the peace, the hope that love and patience might somehow be enough, and the painful realisation that surviving can sometimes mean having to choose yourself. What gives this memoir strength is the way Ayshea looks beyond a single relationship and reflects on the patterns that began...

Juggalo History 🎪🪓 in the making 2026: Image credit: Google. K•Doll is believed to be the UK’s first female Juggalo rapper, carving out a rare space for British women within Juggalo and horrorcore music. I never imagined that the music I vibed with as a teenager would eventually help shape the K•Doll persona I have today, and I’m genuinely surprised to realise that my own music journey may have made a little piece of Juggalo history along the way. Back in 1998, younger me had absolutely no idea where that love of horrorcore, underground music and the Dark Carnival would lead. She didn’t know she’d grow up to create her own music, build her own identity as an artist, blend that influence with her own style and eventually carve out her own space within the UK scene. And I think younger me would be so damn proud. 🖤🤡 It’s surreal looking back and realising that something that once simply made me feel understood, entertained and connected has become part of my own creative identity all ...

Why Pride is still needed: Pride is still needed because legal equality does not automatically mean lived equality. LGBTQ+ people can still experience bullying, harassment, discrimination, rejection from family, hate crime and hostility simply for being who they are. Trans people in particular are currently at the centre of intense public and political debate, and young LGBTQ+ people can grow up hearing that their identity is something shameful, controversial or unacceptable. Pride is therefore about more than celebration. It is about visibility, community, remembrance and the freedom to exist without fear. It remembers people who fought for rights that many now take for granted, honours those who suffered or died because of prejudice, and gives isolated people a chance to see that they are not alone. Supporting Pride also doesn't require everyone to have identical beliefs about every issue involving sex, gender, sexuality or policy. People can disagree respectfully on difficult qu...

I Care Because I Know What It Means to Need Support: I Care Because I Know What It Means to Need Support I restarted blogging while I was pregnant, but my instinct to advocate for others started long before that. For most of my life, I have spoken up when something felt unfair, harmful or inaccessible. I have raised awareness of disability, challenged barriers, supported people through difficult situations and tried to use my experiences to create something positive. This collage holds so many chapters of my life. It shows pregnancy and motherhood. It shows disability, mobility aids and moments when simply getting through the day required determination. It shows hospital visits and the years in which I supported my son through Acute Lymphoblastic Leukaemia. It also shows campaigning, protest, awareness work and the gradual development of the advocate I am today. Behind every photograph is a story. Some are filled with love and joy. Others represent fear, exhaustion, pain and circumstan...

Celebrating how far I've come: I’ve come such a long way. I know success is defined differently depending on who you ask, but since rebuilding my mobility and getting out of my wheelchair, I’ve had so many achievements to celebrate. ❤️ I’ve been featured in publications and media, worked as an actor, producer and filmmaker, appeared in movies and independent film projects, written blogs and books, created and released music, designed artwork and products, modelled, performed, spoken publicly and continued developing my own creative projects. Alongside that, I’ve spent years advocating for disabled people, survivors and vulnerable members of our communities. I’ve supported individuals through difficult situations, completed safeguarding and advocacy training, volunteered with charities and community organisations, founded support spaces, helped manage large online communities, created Aycliffe Alternative Magazine and used my platforms to raise awareness, celebrate local talent and ...

My Boundaries Remain in Place: Today, I need to refocus on my driving as I prepare for my practical test. The noise, hostility and abusive distractions are not welcome. I keep reminding myself that storms pass. Until this situation is resolved, I will continue blocking anyone who brings hostility, harassment or personal attacks into my spaces. I am entitled to decide which people, organisations and community projects I promote on my own platforms. Our communities deserve spaces where people feel protected, respected and properly safeguarded. Because I have previously been harmed by organisations that were supposed to support me, I take concerns about conduct, accountability and positions of responsibility extremely seriously. I will not promote an organisation while I have unresolved concerns about the conduct of people affiliated with it, particularly where that conduct has caused me significant distress. That is a personal safeguarding boundary, not an instruction telling anyone else...

Family Time: I had a wonderful day yesterday with my son, Brandon. ❤️ He had such a difficult start in life and has overcome so many obstacles, including leukaemia. The young man he has become inspires me every day. He is intelligent, creative and endlessly fascinating, and I will always be incredibly proud to be his mam. Yesterday, he introduced us to the work of Kane Pixels and explained how he developed his interpretation of The Backrooms. We watched some of Kane’s earlier footage while Brandon enthusiastically talked us through the story, ideas and filmmaking behind it. Brandon loves everything connected to creepypasta, horror and mysterious online worlds, and I love seeing how passionate and knowledgeable he becomes when discussing the things that interest him. I had missed him and my parents so much. I have been exceptionally busy and working incredibly hard behind the scenes, so this much-needed family catch-up meant the world to me. We also enjoyed a lovely meal together at The...

"Should people really have to verify they're disabled by wearing a sunflower lanyard?" Me: No, but considering some people seem to think my walking stick is a fashion accessory, it doesn't hurt to remind people that they can't diagnose invisible conditions, fractures, dislocations, internal swelling, or any other medical condition with their eyes. People can be incredibly ignorant. If wearing a Sunflower Lanyard helps remind others that not every disability is visible and encourages a little more patience and respect, then that's no bad thing. Respect shouldn't have to be earned by proving you're disabled, but until society stops judging people by appearances, anything that helps challenge those assumptions has value. Sarah Wingfield ❤️  #sunflowerlanyard #dynamicdisabilities Alt text: Selfie of a woman with long pastel pink hair wearing pink-tinted glasses and making a peace sign toward the camera. She is wearing a green Sunflower Lanyard around her n...

🎪 Something exciting is coming... 👀 I'm so excited to finally share that I'll be performing a surprise 15-minute set somewhere in the UK this year! 🎤✨ For now, the location and date are staying under wraps... 🤫🔒 All will be revealed soon, so keep your eyes peeled for the official announcement. I can't wait to share this moment with you all! Who's ready? 🎭💚🩷 WHOOP WHOOP!  MMFWCL4LIFE 🤡🃏🎪 KDoll 🔥🪓 #KDoll #LivePerformance #SurpriseAnnouncement #SecretGig #AlternativeMusic #Horrorcore #DarkMusic #IndependentArtist #UKMusic #LiveMusic #MusicCommunity #Goth #AltScene #Emo #Performance #KeepEyesPeeled #ComingSoon #WatchThisSpace Alt text: Square promotional poster featuring K•Doll in dramatic clown-inspired makeup with pastel pink and lavender hair against a dark carnival-themed background. The poster announces a surprise 15-minute live set taking place somewhere in the UK this year, with the location and date to be disclosed later. The design uses bold neon pink...

  🌻 Accessibility & Disability – Why the Sunflower Lanyard Matters 🌻 The Hidden Disabilities Sunflower is a simple but powerful way for people with non-visible disabilities and conditions to discreetly signal that they may need additional support, understanding or patience. As someone who is autistic, has ADHD, hEDS, POTS and lives with chronic pain, my Sunflower lanyard has helped me communicate needs that aren't always obvious. Not every disability is visible, and a little kindness can make a huge difference. The new Sunflower Extra initiative gives people another way to communicate important accessibility information, helping businesses and organisations provide more personalised support while promoting inclusion. Accessibility isn't about giving people special treatment—it's about removing unnecessary barriers so everyone has the opportunity to participate with dignity. 💚 Be patient. 🌻 Be understanding. ♿ Remember that disabilities come in many forms. Sarah Wing...

Free document for Aspiring Filmmakers: 📥 Free Download: Script Breakdown Checklist (Per Scene) One of the biggest lessons I've learned while working in pre-production is that a thorough script breakdown can save countless hours later in the filmmaking process. To help other filmmakers, producers, assistant directors, production managers and film students, I've created my own Script Breakdown Checklist (Per Scene). This checklist has been designed to prompt you through every scene of a script, helping you identify everything your production may need before you get to set. It covers far more than just cast and props, including: - Scene analysis and story purpose - Cast, extras and stunt requirements - Wardrobe, hair and makeup - Props, set dressing and special effects - Camera, lighting and sound - Locations and accessibility - Vehicles, animals and specialist departments - Health & Safety, risk assessments and PAT testing - Licences, permits, insurance and legal considerati...

  ~Choosing Growth Every Day~ Happy Friday everyone! 💛 I hope you all have a wonderful Friday and an even better weekend. This weekend I'll be working on script breakdowns, revising for my driving test and continuing to move several exciting projects forward. Every day is another opportunity to learn, improve and take one more step towards the future I'm building. One thing I've learned is that growth is a choice. It's choosing healthier habits. It's choosing to keep learning. It's choosing to protect your peace. It's choosing to keep moving forward, even when life hasn't always been easy. I'm really pleased to have signed up for the Resilience programme at Pioneering Care Partnership (PCP), where I'll be taking part in sessions to continue developing healthier ways of managing conflict, building resilience and strengthening my wellbeing. None of us stop growing, and I think that's something worth celebrating. My health journey is also cont...