I don't want to but I have to:

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I've had..a morning..lol...

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Let's make sure my afternoon goes better!


So in summary:

Totally been put off doing the police assessment and video interview NGL, but I have to do it (my personal morals to help others after me) so I've asked my Harbour worker if she's free on the morning (no flexibility for me) that they are doing a prep assessment that I already did with police officers and now have to do all over again with a new stranger that is apparently upset as they have to travel so far and that's why there's no flexibility for myself as a disabled person in regards to afternoon appointments and I feel like a burden already as I had to even ASK what station I was supposed to be going to and if they're still collecting me transportation wise, they weren't but they will now.


Yay- Stressed! 🤯 How lovely.


Anyways I just want to feck it all off and don't wanna do any of it, it's hard enough to do already, but my moral compass won't let me so now I'm irked and moody. Bleurgh!


Gonna get sorted and chill for my breakthrough worker this afternoon as my life doesn't stop even when I need it to.


I have goals and I fight my disability daily to achieve them. Note to self though: More rest days needed, say NO more and stop being pressured to accommodate people that don't fully accommodate you!


Plus, I can't let other people go through what I did. Even if it's my word against his, even without proper evidence, it can act as supporting evidence in the near future when he does it again. Not if, definitely when.


Let's hope my harbour worker is free and can attend too otherwise I may have to interrogate the police for more specifics again and wanna bang my head off a wall, I prefer specifics, directness and knowing where I stand. Hate having to query everything. But now I know so I'm gonna chill out and hopefully have a productive afternoon.


My song went live on all streaming platforms so I should still be super excited about that, not distracted and wanting to hide and bury my head in the sand for a month. (Gonna do a separate post about that because this one's just too negative)


Oh well.


Sarah ❤️






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