PGP / SPD My story:

Publicly Muted, Warned and Embarrassed for Discussing My Legal Medication -Not a safe space afterall: I came across a creator who appeared to be doing amazing work promoting independent music. A song about cannabis was literally playing during the livestream—yet when I mentioned that I am legally prescribed medical cannabis in the UK, she publicly muted me. When I challenged the behaviour as discrimination, she then publicly warned me in front of everyone. I had broken no laws or clearly stated rules. I was discussing medication legally prescribed to treat my disabilities—not promoting illegal drug use. To publicly single out, silence and embarrass a disabled person for speaking about their lawful medication is unacceptable. Cannabis was apparently acceptable as entertainment in a song, but not when a disabled medical-cannabis patient spoke about the reality of using it. I have since left and blocked the creator. I will not remain in spaces where disabled people are publicly humiliated...

Important Vlog Update, the highs and lows of neighborhoods and industries, how we won't stop or quit and how you could learn from us. Sarah Wingfield  KawaiiDollDecora.uk #vlog #blog #musicartist #actor #filmmaker Watch video from YouTube below: 

The time Junction 7 a charity said this to me "But she looked fine at Ayclive" (when I could still go) lmao  and held my food parcel to ransom (years ago) because I wanted to help my community with delivery for elderly and disabled and they claimed that was me slxgging them off lol.  #ableism I avoid any charities that make my life harder now. I don't forget when and how and who has treated me badly, I just advocate so others don't have to endure the same mistreatment, and I'm glad I'm nothing like those who #harmed me when I needed #help instead. ❤️❤️❤️ I never dared ask them for help ever again and never have, and have had their supporters supporting this mistreatment and hating on me.  Tells me everything.  Sarah Wingfield  KawaiiDollDecora.uk

New Drip! 🔥🪓 K•Doll Merch Has Landed The Dark Carnival wardrobe just got a little louder. 🎪💗🖤 I’ve been building more of the K•Doll universe, and that now includes a growing collection of merch inspired by the music, the clown persona, the artwork and the community around it. From K•Doll clothing and mugs to coasters, plushies, gift bags and original designs, there’s a little bit of chaos for everyone. Some pieces are bright, cute and unmistakably K•Doll, while others lean into the darker horrorcore/Juggalo side of the project. One of my favourites is the “Stay Clownin’” design — because if there’s one thing K•Doll is going to do, it’s stay unapologetically weird. 😂🤡 There’s also my “I’m proud of my sober homies” artwork, dedicated to openhearted Juggalos and recovery support. That one means something deeper to me. Community isn’t only about the music or aesthetic; it’s about showing up for people, celebrating progress and reminding people that they still belong. K•Doll has alwa...

POTS Is Not “Just a Fast Heart Rate” My heart rate was 88 bpm. I stood up. It went to 134 bpm within four minutes. That’s a rise of 46 beats per minute just from changing position. For adults, one of the diagnostic features of Postural Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) is a sustained increase in heart rate of 30 bpm or more within 10 minutes of standing, alongside symptoms of orthostatic intolerance and without the significant blood pressure drop that would point more towards orthostatic hypotension. So while one smartwatch reading alone does not diagnose POTS, a jump like 88 → 134 bpm shows exactly why simply standing can be difficult. Thankfully, I have been diagnosed and have managed my POTS for years now. And this is something people often misunderstand. Someone with POTS can sometimes manage sitting, moving around or even walking better than standing still. That doesn’t mean the condition is mild. It means the body is having to work differently to keep blood circulating properly while u...

  We Are the Dark Carnival — So Start Acting Like Fam When people talk about celebrities, artists or anyone with a bit of notoriety, there’s often so much negativity attached to it. That isn’t what I want K•Doll to be remembered for. I want people to remember me as the hype girl. The weird creative clown with creativity running through her blood, but also someone who made people feel good about themselves. I want people to be able to say: “I remember when K•Doll told me my hair looked amazing.” “I remember when K•Doll told me to stay strong when I was struggling.” “I remember when K•Doll shared my music.” “I remember feeling like she was actually in my corner.” That’s the legacy I want. I already have some notoriety, and I actually downplay a hell of a lot of what I’ve achieved. I’ve been internationally published as an alternative model and built platforms across creative, professional and community spaces. But I don’t walk into a room screaming my CV at people. Most people who m...