PGP / SPD My story:

Guess saging myself with white sage last night didn't help... Don't laugh! I've literally had no luck so I was ready to try anything and everything and I rejected all negative energies projected onto me and cleansed myself of anything negative. Had a peaceful night so assumed it worked....until... Fast forward to this morning and my hosepipe broke and has a hole in it so I got squirted cleaning the garden up lol and then the gate latch snapped off to add to my distress so it doesn't close so me da has had to drill a hole for the bolt whilst I put in a repair request to Livin for a new latch. To add to it all I'm having an epically bad pain day so I wanted to sit in the sunshine without having to screw buds leash into grass out my front. Guess I'm not allowed easy. 😅🥺 I just want one easy day. 🙃🙏🏻 ...pretty please universe.🥺 xx Sarah x

I have just finished the meeting was really interesting and heartbreaking hearing other people's stories and struggles and as much differences we had with regards to conditions there were a lot of similarities with how our cases have been handled when applying for PIP etc. Lola McEvoy showed incredible compassion and patience and her team took a lot of notes to pass onto the house of commons in regards to the green paper. Let's hope that she isn't just heard when she shares our experiences but is actually listened to. I'm very grateful to her and her team today for the time and the session and we have done our best which is all we can do. I'm sending love to everyone worried and struggling right now and I truly hope we can make a positive difference by doing this. Sarah Wingfield 

Today I'm attending the Darlington MPs engagement event on the social security system. I hope to use my voice today to advocate for ALL of us with disabilities, who can't be there, can't be at protests and who are like myself fighting to be understood and supported by our government. I've done the work, sent the emails, worked with charities, filled out questions and forms and I am still doing it. Firstly I have a call from butterfly world which I'm anxious about but I know I was doing the right thing by leaving and that my fur baby was always safe. Some of us actually experiment and test our cars and make logical decisions but it doesn't matter because people will jump to conclusions and use that to lash out because feeling 'right' is better than doing the right thing. Why isn't our world better and why does it not have places for our animals to be watched and looked after? The same reason they don't even make things accessible for humans, they ...

Society is THE problem: Someone's disability may prevent them from doing certain things but the biggest obstacles disabled people face are barriers that are built by our broken society. People can't hold their hands up and admit fault anymore, they only care about a certain thing when it happens to them or affects them and that needs to change. I am not perfect but I already call myself out and fix me when I need to and more people NEED to be like me. If it helps to mislabel me with derogatory labels instead of acknowledging who and how I actually am, then you yourself are choosing that. I won't fight you justifying negativity or abuse because I can't make you care. The disabled deserve access to the same things that are a luxury for abled-bodied people and when I advocate I understand I am controversial and people will misunderstand and not listen to my actual words and others will be hateful, spiteful, distort the context and use experiences as an excuse to dictate, h...

It's apparently wrong to want to communicate with people who only act like they care about animals and others when it gives them an opportunity to be judgemental or abusive. I'm compassionate and kind and my message wasn't a rant but because people can't accept the facts they choose the wrong behaviour sometimes it's easier to ignore facts and reality and kindness and when their abuse is met with reason and compassion because they can't paint you as the person they wanted you to be they still take sides in things that don't actually have sides and are about a much bigger picture. People are allowed to ask you to support mental health and choose problem solving over being a problem. You're allowed to ignore how you impact people badly but maybe don't do it in the first place if you don't want discussions and just want an EXCUSE FOR ABUSE towards people. You can't advocate for mental health whilst assuming things and changing facts to meet fals...

Good morning. As you get ready for your day please try and choose who you want to be today. A problem solver and someone kind or a problem. Those that create problems tend to find any excuse for abuse, to jump on hate bandwagons and choose negativity over kindness. You are not my kind of people and all I ask is you choose better. Regarding a recent issue I had if people actually cared instead of fake cared why don't all if not most places have somewhere people can leave their dogs as they're their family? Or a purchasable option for staff to dogsit if people don't and won't and can't trust people to know the temperature of their vehicles? I vote for a more all inclusive pet friendly society but we're not even accessible for ALL humans at most venues because again people only care when they can use their caring as an excuse to be abusive instead of working towards being a disability friendly and dog friendly society. Check yourselves. Thank you. Sarah Wingfield ❤...

It starts with understanding yourself: Credit: Dr Jo Black #autism #injustice 

As I'm on my own healing journey and have been for some time, I find the world a difficult and unsafe place for myself and I spoke to the crisis team today as I sometimes do the work and research to find better coping methods so I can be the best version of me I can be and so that I can show up for others better.  If I'm a mess I can't help anyone not even myself. I'm sharing something that's one of my flaws/things I need to change and this advice may be helpful. I don't have all the answers and never have but when I find something useful I like to share in the hopes others can be comforted or guided without the despair or stress or struggle or research that I've endured/done. Hope this helps:l - On learning to let go: Why Unjust Pain Lingers: 1. The need for acknowledgment or repair: You were wronged, and nothing was done to make it right. 2. Rumination as self-protection: You replay it because you're trying to understand it or prevent it from happening...

  For those that actually know me, they'll know the hardships and struggles I'm currently facing and how even at my worst, how I show up for others. You get tired though, of ignorance, lack of investigation and research, lack of fact checking, lack of respect and you get so tired of hardship after hardship. Right now I'm just taking hit after hit and I'm collecting the rocks thrown at me cause I'm already at rock bottom and have been for a while and I'm going to use them to build a better life for myself. I may be at rock bottom but screw that I'm renaming it rock top! Life does not get to be this hard and gets away with it. Yea universe you heard me! As an artist I reflect on how the world is, which is an artists duty and I've been blogging for 25 years, lost my others so this one that I have left I've had for 16 of those years. Facts matter, behaviour has a pattern, the truth lies there in plain sight for all to see but often overlooked and replace...

I won't hide that I'm calling someone for help today, there's no shame in seeking understanding, compassion and help. It's the hardest thing for me to do because I don't like calls and I hate feeling low. No matter what I do lately my lane is invaded and even people with good intentions can be super harmful. I'm tired. I feel like nothing I do is ever good enough, I'm isolated and alone a lot and the more I go out in the world the more I want to hide away but I don't want to become agoraphobic. I just want and desperately need good memories because people project so much and hate so much and I've had more than my fair share of struggles over the last decade and despite fighting my body and breaking free of being housebound bedbound I still can't make tops nor tails of this world and it's attraction to sadism.  Yes that's a me issue but I'm always working on me. Here is to hoping I can feel better and be helped as I'm still waiting...

As things have been heavy lately as I try and recover from my own flashbacks from last year, I don't know who needs to hear this, but I'm rooting for you: Tw abuse / DV ⚠️ https://open.spotify.com/episode/2DkORqdEysdWnTg30kLLmi?si=gGK46P-TSdaAmFmk5WM_vQ The podcast is live! ❤️❤️❤️ #domesticabuseawareness #domesticviolenceawareness #abusecycles I'm trying to see what happens if I don't quit:

I won't pretend to understand this world, people make assumptions and don't have the facts. What's worse is people who condone abuse.  They don't care about you or the fact you are a smart and logical person who is loving and kind and has not actually done anything wrong at any time. They'd rather convince themselves you're wrong to justify mistreatment but you can't make others understand and you can't make others care. I don't hate anyone for caring about my dog, I appreciate that, I love my dog and knew he was always safe and well and still is but people will go out of their way to condone abuse and even be abusive on the back of you being a truth speaker. Even when you explain what you did wrong by reacting to public humiliation poorly. I should have called the police. Period. But I haven't because unlike others I care and understand people caring. I am not who and how people want to think I am and I uplift others and simply ask people to be ...

💔 Went to butterfly world left Bud in the car for forty minutes and it's cool in the car and the windows are all open. Dog is absolutely fine but the way India who works there spoke to us laughing at us and slagging us off triggered my autism in public. Just had an autistic meltdown cause people are accusing us of animal cruelty and overstepping unprofessionally and abusively so we've left. Total humiliation and false allegations man. There's a way to talk to people so we've left and gone home. She was openly telling other people that we are abusive and they were all laughing at me but how dare she. He has water and we were almost done cause we were not going to leave him long but it doesn't matter. People don't care they only care to act high and mighty with a ganging up mentality.  Getting members of the public involved is wrong and if she had bothered to put her hand in the car where it's cooler than outside and in the shade she would have realised she w...

I am currently taking hit after hit from the universe and feel like a spider shedding its skin as I shed and lose so much. I don't know if it's making room for anything good, at this point I'll settle for anything that's boring or peaceful and no more hits from the universe. Relationship breakdowns, bad health news about family members, trauma you're still recovering from, people invading my lane that are strangers to me and should leave me alone or stay away; but we have no choice but to keep taking the hits in the hope that there's more for us, somewhere out there. Like a weed we blossom through concrete and we fight to hold on to everything we have, only to end up alone in the end. At least alone is safe. Trust however, I'm starting to hate that word, it's the single most important aspect of everything. Without trust you have nothing, and when you struggle to trust yourself... *I pick myself up and dust myself off* When you feel like you can't tak...

Image: A Facebook post by myself about the importance of accessibility and not being afraid of using different aids as and when you need them. ❤️ I need to do my make up and get ready for the food festival. I need to be out and enjoying the sunnyshine after everything I've been going through. I appreciated the job centre so much this morning and the lady I met with was an absolute star! I have several upcoming appointments that could all potentially help me and she was so kind and understanding with everything I've gone through. I've taken the steps to improve my life and I don't quit and keep going to see what happens if I don't give up, she said I've just not found the right match job wise yet and I'm hopeful with all the information (there was a lot) I've taken away and with the upcoming appointments that I'll be able to move forward so I can keep affording my pain management and find some much needed financial independence. I'm wearing my hip...

  Image reads: " I once thought I was toxic, and in some ways I was. But the truth is, I became toxic as a defense mechanism. I'm not toxic to those who treat me with kindness, respect, and love. I'm caring, kind, and affectionate until I'm given a reason not to be. " It isn't toxic to ask for respect , I avoid unsafe spaces, I don't recruit or condone hate campaigns or any abuse or sabotage. I don't disrespect people in those ways and I'm allowed to not want to be treated as such. I'm going through a lot right now and I'm trying to make the best decisions without the support I should have in place by now. I may not always get it right but at least when I make mistakes it's not harmful to others and I learn and fix myself from them. I may not be understood but I need to fight for me now, I've been watered down and mistreated so long that I'm saying no from this point forward to it all. I deserve respect and kindness and have don...

I'm done being scared and bullied and hiding. I set the truth free and if I get harmed and arrested for doing so, so be it. I refuse to be harmed or suffer anymore, I can't cope. I've harmed no one at any time and asking for an apology and blogging about my mistreatment doesn't justify false allegations. This has been breaking me. I need to set the truth free so my bullies have no more control. I'm sorry I wish I was stronger. I did my best. Sarah Wingfield 🌹 #truth #falseallegations #liestopolice #scared #harmed #donebeingbullied 

  I've suffered enough, it's about time I posted the document with the names of those who lied to the police about me and the false allegations. Life has been extremely difficult anyway, I'm struggling as it is and keep being reminded of those who chose abuse over communication isn't helping my mental health. Threatened of arrests because I wanted an apology. False allegations claiming I've harmed people of specific organisations on the town when it is the other way around. I'm tired of it all. So very tired. People constantly get away with bad actions and malicious actions and lies and their victims get no justice. I've had enough of the way the world is. Scaremongering, lying and ostracising is all the abusive people are good at and I'm tired of the after affects of their actions and all I've lost. I stepped away from my community work and I'll never be able to become a councilor to help my townsfolk because of three individuals who also happen...

Busy day tomorrow! Finally got a job centre appointment so I'm going to see how they can help me RE accessibility and part time work. Finished notes for a podcast I will be doing with DurhamEnable about their services and what it is like to be disabled. I hope it will help lots of people and is relatable and uplifting!  Then if I'm not too achy, I hope to join my hometown at their food festival event so if you see me there say hi! There'll be live music and plenty of food to enjoy! Last time I was there I was running the Aycliffe Uncensored page (I had to step down from creating and running the page due to ostracising issues from local organisations etc which made it difficult to manage the page and do the community work) and I had filmed for that page but tomorrow I'm just going to enjoy myself and capture footage for my personal blog and social media channels. Today however is a rest day, as I've had a very difficult week and life has tested me this week as it can...

  I've needed some rest days and today I had a very interesting call from a pain support service my GP referred me to. I'm waiting for an email about what they do and can offer me and since I've done everything up to this point alone and with little to no support, I hope I can find some helpful tips and tricks to help manage even better than I am on bad pain days and flare up days. I don't understand this world as some people are so hypocritical and fake and preach things they don't believe in just for clout, but atleast the universe is removing people like that from my lane. That I can be thankful for at least. I contacted my UC journal about rent changes as rent has gone up for everyone and thought I'd leave a message asking if they would be willing to help with seeking part time work as well as DurhamEnable. I got a very odd response. I stated "I'm working with DurhamEnable to try and secure part time paid work but I'm struggling due to my dynami...

~To younger me, I'm sorry I ever doubted you, this is the life meant for you, you should have always chased your dreams.~ IMDb.me/SarahWingfield 🎬 I want to take the time to say a huge thank you to everyone who has uplifted me, supported me, saw me at my worst, still see me during pain flare ups and as I fight my body, pushed me, believed in me and I hope, truly, that I can inspire others to never quit on their dreams and aspirations.  To inspire people to always face obstacles head on, even when those obstacles are their own body, and I hope that other disabled people can see their worth and are aware of their qualities and skills, even if most of the world overlooks us. Stand in your own light and never be afraid to shine. When I first broke out of my bedbound and housebound situation, not all that long ago in 2021, I never thought I'd ever be in the position I am now; actioning positive change, helping others, studying and bettering myself and achieving, what are big things...

  No one likes someone who can see through their facade. They gang up to discredit them because they're a threat to their fake reputations. They can stay scared of the truth, I'll never apologise for being authentic and I'll always avoid unsafe spaces. Stay authentic and keep being someone who prioritises safeguarding over petty peer pressure and clique-politics. 💯 I'm proud I'm hated by those I am hated by, they earned their place with their BS. 😘❤️ I hate no one. I sometimes hate how people choose to behave but as long as they stay out of my lane and away from me and stop sabotaging or interfering then I'm golden!  Even when they hate and ostracise, it just pushes me to be more driven anyway, I channel negativity and turn it into something positive, tangible, even if it's simply determination to use to go after my goals harder. I'm proud of me. 💯💪🏻❤️☺️✨ Sarah Wingfield ✨

Happy Mother's Day! ❤️  We started by losing an hour for day light savings and I've had a bad pain flare last night and managed to get through filming and I'm now resting in bed for the next few days. Had a lovely time with my son yesterday and my partner as we gamed and then watched movies. My son got me a wonderful card and some wine and I dropped my mam's gifts off yesterday. I hope everyone in the UK have had a wonderful mother's day and I'm so amazed by my son every single day. So grateful and thankful to be a mother, when I was told at a young age I wouldn't be. He is my miracle and I'm so proud of him and of the man he's becoming! I'm being targeted again by Instagram as they are censoring and removing my content under the false label 'inauthentic behaviour' and now I am at risk of losing my second TikTok because they're not plus size friendly. The world's getting worse every single day and we can't change or stop it. M...

  Just finished filming for Reloaded 3, as Lucy. IMDb.me/SarahWingfield 🎬  Reloaded movies  George Tounas After a busy weekend I am so excited to announce that my scenes as Lucy are all sorted for the Reloaded 3 movie which is in post-production currently and set to be released soon on Tubi, Apple TV, Amazon Prime and more! Sarah Wingfield 🌹 

 ❤️‍🔥 To all my disabled friends being targeted by ignorant people off the back of the government, their idiocy is not your fault, I hope you still see and accept your worth in the face of the negativity, hate and attacks happening right now. It's not long ago a friend of mine got targeted in the street due to her disability, we aren't safe but we were never safe and we've fought so far so we can't quit. It's not our fault people choose negative energy instead of using their voice to action positive change, they can't see we are all in the same boat and by targeting us they're drowning themselves. People no longer listen to reason or logic, hating and dictating has become the norm. Just know you are not alone, I've heard and care deeply about what is going on and the stress and anxiety my disabled community and friends are experiencing right now and you are not alone and never will be. We are in this together and we are the only ones trying to save us A...

https://www.thenorthernecho.co.uk/news/25039435.darlington-disability-activists-rally-welfare-cuts/ The Northern Echo article link. I am so proud of all of us! 💥📢 Not everyone is covered in these images, a lot more of us were there but this news is raising the awareness we need and that we won't stand back and take the cuts to our survival. Kawaii Doll Decora  Sarah Wingfield Author   DPAC (Disabled People Against Cuts)  - Sarah Wingfield  Independent Disability Advocate  Always speak up for your rights! 💪🏻❤️ Jenny Joyce holding a picket sign stating 'Our blood on your hands' Amelia Still & Adele Neesam holding a a protest banner stating 'Dykes for disability rights' The whole protest crew. 2025. A heart felt handwritten note amongst many that reads 'Without PIP I have no independence' Thank you for reading. Sarah ❤️  #welfarenotwarfare #disabilityrights #disabilitybenefits #CutsKill #darlington #DisabilitySupport #disabilityawareness #TaxTheRi...