PGP / SPD My story:

I am currently taking hit after hit from the universe and feel like a spider shedding its skin as I shed and lose so much. I don't know if it's making room for anything good, at this point I'll settle for anything that's boring or peaceful and no more hits from the universe. Relationship breakdowns, bad health news about family members, trauma you're still recovering from, people invading my lane that are strangers to me and should leave me alone or stay away; but we have no choice but to keep taking the hits in the hope that there's more for us, somewhere out there. Like a weed we blossom through concrete and we fight to hold on to everything we have, only to end up alone in the end. At least alone is safe. Trust however, I'm starting to hate that word, it's the single most important aspect of everything. Without trust you have nothing, and when you struggle to trust yourself... *I pick myself up and dust myself off* When you feel like you can't tak...

Image: A Facebook post by myself about the importance of accessibility and not being afraid of using different aids as and when you need them. ❤️ I need to do my make up and get ready for the food festival. I need to be out and enjoying the sunnyshine after everything I've been going through. I appreciated the job centre so much this morning and the lady I met with was an absolute star! I have several upcoming appointments that could all potentially help me and she was so kind and understanding with everything I've gone through. I've taken the steps to improve my life and I don't quit and keep going to see what happens if I don't give up, she said I've just not found the right match job wise yet and I'm hopeful with all the information (there was a lot) I've taken away and with the upcoming appointments that I'll be able to move forward so I can keep affording my pain management and find some much needed financial independence. I'm wearing my hip...

  Image reads: " I once thought I was toxic, and in some ways I was. But the truth is, I became toxic as a defense mechanism. I'm not toxic to those who treat me with kindness, respect, and love. I'm caring, kind, and affectionate until I'm given a reason not to be. " It isn't toxic to ask for respect , I avoid unsafe spaces, I don't recruit or condone hate campaigns or any abuse or sabotage. I don't disrespect people in those ways and I'm allowed to not want to be treated as such. I'm going through a lot right now and I'm trying to make the best decisions without the support I should have in place by now. I may not always get it right but at least when I make mistakes it's not harmful to others and I learn and fix myself from them. I may not be understood but I need to fight for me now, I've been watered down and mistreated so long that I'm saying no from this point forward to it all. I deserve respect and kindness and have don...

I'm done being scared and bullied and hiding. I set the truth free and if I get harmed and arrested for doing so, so be it. I refuse to be harmed or suffer anymore, I can't cope. I've harmed no one at any time and asking for an apology and blogging about my mistreatment doesn't justify false allegations. This has been breaking me. I need to set the truth free so my bullies have no more control. I'm sorry I wish I was stronger. I did my best. Sarah Wingfield 🌹 #truth #falseallegations #liestopolice #scared #harmed #donebeingbullied 

  I've suffered enough, it's about time I posted the document with the names of those who lied to the police about me and the false allegations. Life has been extremely difficult anyway, I'm struggling as it is and keep being reminded of those who chose abuse over communication isn't helping my mental health. Threatened of arrests because I wanted an apology. False allegations claiming I've harmed people of specific organisations on the town when it is the other way around. I'm tired of it all. So very tired. People constantly get away with bad actions and malicious actions and lies and their victims get no justice. I've had enough of the way the world is. Scaremongering, lying and ostracising is all the abusive people are good at and I'm tired of the after affects of their actions and all I've lost. I stepped away from my community work and I'll never be able to become a councilor to help my townsfolk because of three individuals who also happen...

Busy day tomorrow! Finally got a job centre appointment so I'm going to see how they can help me RE accessibility and part time work. Finished notes for a podcast I will be doing with DurhamEnable about their services and what it is like to be disabled. I hope it will help lots of people and is relatable and uplifting!  Then if I'm not too achy, I hope to join my hometown at their food festival event so if you see me there say hi! There'll be live music and plenty of food to enjoy! Last time I was there I was running the Aycliffe Uncensored page (I had to step down from creating and running the page due to ostracising issues from local organisations etc which made it difficult to manage the page and do the community work) and I had filmed for that page but tomorrow I'm just going to enjoy myself and capture footage for my personal blog and social media channels. Today however is a rest day, as I've had a very difficult week and life has tested me this week as it can...

  I've needed some rest days and today I had a very interesting call from a pain support service my GP referred me to. I'm waiting for an email about what they do and can offer me and since I've done everything up to this point alone and with little to no support, I hope I can find some helpful tips and tricks to help manage even better than I am on bad pain days and flare up days. I don't understand this world as some people are so hypocritical and fake and preach things they don't believe in just for clout, but atleast the universe is removing people like that from my lane. That I can be thankful for at least. I contacted my UC journal about rent changes as rent has gone up for everyone and thought I'd leave a message asking if they would be willing to help with seeking part time work as well as DurhamEnable. I got a very odd response. I stated "I'm working with DurhamEnable to try and secure part time paid work but I'm struggling due to my dynami...