PGP / SPD My story:

Happy Birthday Brandon!  15 today! The best creation I've ever created and he's always making momma proud! You've grown taller than me and you may be becoming a man but I'll always be your mam and I'll always be so amazed at how you keep growing and changing and have changed a million times since you were born. You're the best dude I know. Love you son. Mam xoxo

When you're used to a lot of hate and sabotage and you find yourself hit with obstacle after obstacle and hater after hater it can sometimes feel like everything is against you and I just unpublished a previous post because although I am blocking toxic people and haters, there has been a lot of support I wasn't expecting after the initial trolling, so although that blog post was about people being awful and toxic I don't want to keep focusing on the negative anymore. I'm doing the inner work to try and accept things better and navigate better. I have to remember that there are a lot of good people still in this world and trauma can have you anxious and panicked and expecting the worst constantly, so it's always a pleasant surprise when you receive support. I can be reactive and want to hold a mirror up to people's behaviour or defend myself but I'm still learning how to take a step back. I am still learning and relearning that I can't make other people c

  I often have days where I sit back and wonder what it is I've been doing since 2009, what and who is this blog for, do I even matter, or am I just blogging into an abyss?...and it always ends the same. It doesn't matter. I've always blogged, had several before this one and it's just a part of my life. Sometimes my own compassion can be bigger than my self-preservation and that can be tricky because you need boundaries and this world is definitely hard to navigate. I've been seeing a lot more bad than good as of late and a lot more abuse and negativity than support and community and being the soul I am it is soul crushing. I am a sensitive soul and I'm starting to accept that, trying to embrace that, but the world keeps throwing me obstacles where I have to be the fighter, the warrior, the defender and I want to be the silly, daft, happy-go-lucky me. I believe in the universe and Yin and Yang so if my life has more struggles then maybe the surreal bad will lead

 So this is the stalker i am dealing with and really am exhausted with my frenemyfanbase so at this rate can't be bothered to keep having to go to the police, especially when it's people being sadistic and abusive online more than in person or connected directly to me, so if you see this man writing anything please report the posts and block him. If he continues however he'll leave me no choice and I'll have to notify the police about him too. I don't know why strangers think they have the right to sabotage, defame, lie about, falsely accuse, or be malicious to people they don't know. This world is not full of adults, it's full of fake adults, grown babies that can't help themselves nevermind others, who can't behave and can't mind their business. I do work despite my disabilities but it's extremely hard and difficult and I do a lot of charity work. What I choose to do to invest in myself and help fund my own start up business is my business.

 ~Especially when you're being hunted for sport ~ (Stalker Ron Thompson: got screenshots sent to me again he's posting lots of BS (6hrs ago) about my adult content and he's from my town all cause I turned him down, more abuse from strangers: my mates family now, and just got rid of some more trolls off the back of leaving sisters of support and from all the other town BS cause adults can't own accountability here and we can't make them care or change). I'll keep moving forward irregardless of the abusive people that exist and get away with whatever they please whilst some of us get penalised for barely breathing... Sarah x

It started snowing a little today but I could already feel the pain increase in my joints muscles, ligaments and bones. I'm stiff and tight and sore and the cold weather really makes a difficult adversary. My legs keep cramping up and I'm needing my vape more than usual. Hopefully now I've asked my new friend (S) to not relay any abuse directed at me from his family I can now focus on my busy week ahead and focus on getting the much needed rest I need and more. I don't need to know what his family says, they're nothing to do with me but I am a person with morals in my own right and I will defend myself when necessary against any and all abuse tactics. It's funny though how every single abusive person that's deliberately invaded my lane without consent threaten to tell the police about my PRESCRIPTION cannabis. There is definitely a pattern of behaviour when it comes to abusers and narcissists and I will be covering the abuse cycles in my podcast which I'