I often have days where I sit back and wonder what it is I've been doing since 2009, what and who is this blog for, do I even matter, or am I just blogging into an abyss?...and it always ends the same. It doesn't matter. I've always blogged, had several before this one and it's just a part of my life. Sometimes my own compassion can be bigger than my self-preservation and that can be tricky because you need boundaries and this world is definitely hard to navigate. I've been seeing a lot more bad than good as of late and a lot more abuse and negativity than support and community and being the soul I am it is soul crushing. I am a sensitive soul and I'm starting to accept that, trying to embrace that, but the world keeps throwing me obstacles where I have to be the fighter, the warrior, the defender and I want to be the silly, daft, happy-go-lucky me. I believe in the universe and Yin and Yang so if my life has more struggles then maybe the surreal bad will lead