PGP / SPD My story:

Everyday offers something different, haters are exhausting so I take social media breaks these days. Seems everyone has something to say about everything without actually having any knowledge on the things they talk about. When did the world get like this...? I keep moving regardless, finding my light, finding my spirit tribe and hustling like mad to survive in a world with too many obstacles. Too many loopholes that we fall between the cracks of. Some of us can't do what others do so we make do. I'm hated for the right reasons, for standing my ground, for never losing sight of my morals, for pointing out hypocrisy, for stating facts and the truth, for speaking up for myself and others and for fighting for fairness for all and actioning positive change. I can live with that. If I'm not for someone, that's cool. What's not cool is when people are incapable of staying in their own lanes, have to take sides, never remain impartial, never acknowledge the harm they cause...

That time I got bullied by a north east friendship group for calling them out on running it biased and not following their own rules... I got called a b!tch too.. and yea I can be but atleast my actions align with my words and I don't manipulate or BS lmao 🤣  Still laugh about this. Should have changed their name to "friendship (if WE say so) group" lmao. 🤣🤣😎🪓😵 Funny how so many people run groups/charities/organisations etc on their ego and not on fairness. Society can suck bxlls and not in a good way. 😝 Still funny AF. Still ruffling feathers by calling out BS in 2025, still proud AF of myself, my morals and my loyalty to honesty! 🙌🏻💯🤣 Sarah x

  Just boycotted and blocked The Sun newspaper over a ragebait article filled with false information that was used to instigate violence and abuse to those most vulnerable in our society. It claimed a woman got over 2k UC and complained about Disney and Take aways, it's the most vile and deliberately disgustingly inaccurate propaganda I've come across to brainwash the masses to attack and abuse the most vulnerable in our society and enough is enough. The more of us that follow pages like that and allow them to act in such ridiculous ways the more they will and the more loss of life and abuse will occur. Reading the comments I was gobsmacked by the amount hating on welfare without having the foggiest clue how hard it is to even attempt to try and use a food bank. They assume they just 'give food away' instead of the loopholes and dictatorial interrogations that actually occur to be able to even attempt access for one, and that's if it's ran by kind individuals an...

TW: DV /Abuse ⚠️  Been on the waiting list for counselling and help since August, and just filled in a survey to help them with group therapy plans. They wonder why victims of sexual assault and worse don't always make it. The waiting lists for support are too long, the crisis teams can't assist and meanwhile victims are left to navigate the world abandoned from actual coping method awareness they could find useful. More needs to be offered and done for victims of abuse and sexual violence. The world is filled with people judging and victim blaming too, until it happens to THEM. The world's backwards. It's getting worse. I didn't do my police interview either because he's just too dangerous and I can't risk it and need to safeguard myself. I hope I never ever encounter my ex partner ever again. To those that hate and shame us, you need a reality check and a slxp, actions have consequences; or atleast they used to. These days offenders get away with it and co...

Interviews and Accessibility: I attended an interview recently for an important job role co-ordinating disabled students with certificates. A few things happened during the interview that concerned me in regards to lack of awareness of accessibility, I don't want to email them directly as I don't want to get their backs up so I'm going to blog about it instead. When interviewing someone with invisible illnesses there are a few things you can do. Asking to carry anything is a good start, but it's not enough. When walking to the interview room I was stopped in the hallway and made to stand a little while, I have a dislocated pelvis and even though life is unpredictable, this was to me, definable as inconsiderate. The lady hiring talked to a gentleman about tea bags and that was more important than leading me to the interview room and have me sitting comfortably. Sitting comfortably, this again was an issue, they had me sat in a computer chair and didn't give me a choi...

I have an OF. I don't sleep with men or women so don't meet the definition of prostitute (sexual activity in the dictionary definition is the act itself of sex with another, not images or videos) but those that do are still definable as hustlers. I don't gaf what others need to call me because they don't understand the work. I laugh at the hypocrisy of their attitude to SW when they are hypocritical and overlook their own flaws, beating up partners, abusive tendencies, coke heads, drug issues, but yea call me a prozzie if it makes ya feel better. Innit lmao.  If I was able to get a job outside of my disability in the last three years I could have packed OF in but I can't so I'm embracing that work and I 'get off' on my work. Lmao. Can you say the same? 😆🙌🏻😂💀🔥😘 🤔✨😙 I'm done trying to fit in the boxes of society or gain approval from people who I don't even morally approve of the actions they do, in the first place.  They're very dicta...

Some of us have to fight for every little thing, some of us keep trying even when the world makes it even harder to survive, some of us rely on food banks and support, some of us are prevented from getting actual jobs in society, some of us have to do whatever it takes to make it month to month. Without the additional support some of us would not be here, so here's a shout out to every individual whose actually took the time to help a homie out when they've been in need. The world needs more people like you. Sarah. ❤️🌹 Xx 

It's important who you surround yourself with, a friend isn't just a friend, they're energy, and you need and deserve uplifting and supporting and positive energy. They are to support you and be your up when you're down, as you are for them. When life is hard, you need a strong support network around you, my circle is smaller than ever, but it's filled with authentic and kind individuals and I wouldn't change that for the world. The people around you, matter. Sarah xo ❤️

 Oh so there is a name for it. Good to know. Oh look it's defined as ABUSE, don't even try and gaslight me, it's there in black and white: Good thing I stand out too, this world needs to change... and at a rapid rate... So I'm proud to not be a part of any system that makes things worse and I'm proud to be someone that fights for the rights of ALL and fair treatment and proud to be an anomaly in an abysmal society that leads with ego and fake hierarchy. Sarah Wingfield Author 🌹

I wonder what skills I need to get a job, maybe transformer skills as there's not much other than welding and warehouse I am not able to do lol. I've got too many skills and too much experience and could run an organisation myself blindfolded, multiple organisations at this rate. Wish I was exaggerating, really wish I was. Lol 😆. The next thing I was doing after driving was learning Japanese cause I've studied practically everything and worked in every aspect there is and managed other businesses and more. Maaan REALLY wish I was appreciated but one day, maybe when I'm my own boss soon. 💪🏻🔥 Could have done with the money and could have done that job with my hands tied behind my back, but hey, just because people can't accept and see your capabilities and skillset doesn't mean they don't already exist, I know myself and my capabilities and I just can't work full time due to disabilities.  That's my only weakness. I'm super tech savvy too and r...

I haven't had a job interview for a very long time and I was so anxious. This sort of work is so important to me and I'm someone who focuses on actioning positive change, so of course I was anxious as this sort of work means a lot to me. I know I could do it well and I have a passion to help and uplift people in a world that is all too keen on bringing people down. It's in the hands of the universe now, I hope I articulated well as anxiety can impact me and I arrived smartly dressed and well prepared. I find out later today and then will have to update my DurhamEnable career worker and do the access to work paperwork and move forward. If not then it wasn't meant to be and my journey is to take a different path. Of course I hope I get it, it would help with some financial support and independence and I like to feel useful as I've worked hard and sacrificed so much to get all of the skills and education and experience I have to date. I care about the disabled communit...

737 137 seeing a lot of 37's this morning, I believe in something bigger than ALL of us. Something not all humans can comprehend, I don't listen to humanity anymore because they lack human kindness, I follow the universe these days because it's never steered me wrong and never been out to get me. I never know what sort of rollercoaster life has planned for me, if there will be more ups than downs but I will hold on tightly with both hands and never give up. I can support myself when no others do but I no longer have to, for I've found a spirit tribe and a place I belong in the world and I know the truth, I do the work, I hustle and I grind and I will reach for the moon.  Maybe sometime soon I'll land on a star. ⭐ Never give up. KDoll / Sarah Wingfield 

 

  I'm trying to get out of my head and I'll just stop going to Clubs and local events because the organisations and organisers are making it impossible for me to feel safe, boycotting, ostracising and bullying is not ok. I work super hard and don't stop, and support people all the time, I'm upfront and direct with communication and people break their promises and are sneaky sneaky and I'm tired of it. Maybe that's why the universe has me doing movie work and becoming a music artist now so I can leave the egotistical and powermad that abuse their power behind. It's hard when you're autistic and have RSD. It's hard when people are told not to speak to you or involve you and charities and community organisations follow in suit as asked. Join in even, don't remain impartial, take sides unfairly, belittle, dehumanise. I'm glad I now have a partner outside of this town so I have a safe haven to escape to away from it. I'm spending more money an...

Wonder why the community spirit newton aycliffe page has banned my Facebook from their page. Tried sharing the valentine's post from my main account but it doesn't exist, only available to be seen on my KDoll Facebook but the ostracising and bullying is all in my head right? I'm the villain right? Hmm... May email and ask, but depends on who runs it I suppose. If anyone else in Aycliffe is asked to not talk to me or anything like that can you come forward because organisations are getting out of control and I have police involvement. Thank you. Sarah Wingfield  https://www.facebook.com/CSnewtonaycliffe This is their link but doesn't work for my Facebook as someone has blocked me from there... Great town this innit! But the narrative that's spread is I'm the one sabotaging when I'm the one in reality constantly being sabotaged from sharing and promoting and supporting the town. Cheers! 👀👀👀 *Screenshots taken from my KDoll page.* I need to try and get away...

TW: DV/Abuse ⚠️ I may phone women's aid. Really needed my Harbour worker today but she didn't turn up and hours later told me she'd been called into a meeting. Trying to rearrange before the assessment with police and the mediator. I'm so scared of going ahead with this police video interview about DV and an ex partner because he has had someone retaliate on his behalf before when I warned his new girl of how dangerous and abusive he was. My window got put in and my dog got harmed and I found out he'd been dealing drugs so he could literally call up anyone who owes him money and have them do my house in or worse. Practically shaking and crying right now but I don't want to worry my family or parents or loved ones. I'm getting my life back on track and I'm fighting with my morals vs. my safety because I have an assessment soon and I don't feel like the police can protect me from any retaliation that may occur if I do the video interview about the abus...

  Living life finally! 😀  For some of us, we didn't have the possibilities others did, I was glued to a bed for over a decade, through no fault of my own, thrown away and discarded by a system that wants to label disability as a burden over something to help someone manage. I clawed my way back into society from the depths of hell and I'll be damned if I ever let another soul rob me of all things good in life. To those out there feeling voiceless, this is for YOU, you have a voice, you are WORTH more than you know and believe in yourself, learn yourself, pace yourself and overcome. I wish my followers much love and peace in a world that seems to thrive on chaos. KDoll / Sarah x  @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡ #followers #life #living #sacrifice #disability #disabilityawarness #selfworth #journey #hardwork #noonesees #iseeyou #fyp #fypシ゚ 

  Proud of myself for stepping away..🤘🏻🌹 ...gone are the days I'll fight for my worth, I can fight for the rights of disabled people without any support if I have to and I block disrespect now, I don't match the energy. So proud. I leave unsafe spaces, I stop fighting to be seen now. Thank you for last year's lessons. They are blessings. #progress #lessonslearned #Growth

Be careful who you have on your team too, no matter what you advocate for, one bad individual can sink WHOLE ships! 🤘🏻❤️ Action positive change without harming people, without adding to problems and without excusing bad behaviours, egotism or biased perspectives. Remember, your team reflects upon YOU and what YOU as a group/organisation/page/advocate STAND for! Stand for what's right, all of the time, even when no one is looking. Sarah x

I'm excited to announce that my song Zombie Undead - K•Doll, JUST DROPPED on all streaming platforms! https://RecordU.lnk.to/anlKVX My streams have reached over 2k on SoundCloud and I'm going to release 'Woman' next! All that hard work and fifteen years of making music has finally brought some things to fruition and it's good to see! Couldn't have done it without the support of close family, friends and fellow music artists, a huge thank you to them for believing in me and this is only the beginning! K•Doll ❤️ KDoll  Kawaii Doll Decora  @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡ #music #musicartist #kdoll #kawaiidolldecora #SarahWingfield #Amazon #Deezer #Tiktok #Spotify #Soundcloud #Stream #StreamNOW

I've had..a morning..lol... 🤯 Let's make sure my afternoon goes better! So in summary: Totally been put off doing the police assessment and video interview NGL, but I have to do it (my personal morals to help others after me) so I've asked my Harbour worker if she's free on the morning (no flexibility for me) that they are doing a prep assessment that I already did with police officers and now have to do all over again with a new stranger that is apparently upset as they have to travel so far and that's why there's no flexibility for myself as a disabled person in regards to afternoon appointments and I feel like a burden already as I had to even ASK what station I was supposed to be going to and if they're still collecting me transportation wise, they weren't but they will now. Yay- Stressed! 🤯 How lovely. Anyways I just want to feck it all off and don't wanna do any of it, it's hard enough to do already, but my moral compass won't let me ...

An admin declined my post because they misunderstood the flexibility I was asking. I'm asking driving instructors to consider rearranging lessons, I don't understand what they're talking about in regards to half a day lost, double instructors nor do I understand why they are assuming that instructors should only take on motability scheme clients. What irks me more however is how they've declined a whole post based on a skewed and biased perspective based on their misunderstanding of my post. This will lead to more struggles instead of actioning positive change. If we are to increase accessibility and eradicate ableism we need to have people who can be more flexible around chronic pain disabilities. They are still being paid for the same lesson just on an alternative date via rearranging, especially if given notice on the morning it's changed OR allowing disabled people to book the lessons on the same day to ensure ability to drive. Sarah Wingfield  Independent Disab...

Finally some GOOD NEWS 😀  Some good news you can choose zombie Undead as your Facebook profile song on Jan 6th 2025! LOOK OUT FOR MY TRACK ON ALL STREAMING PLATFORMS! Kawaii Doll Decora 💕✨ Meanwhile: Listen to K•Doll, a playlist by K•Doll on #SoundCloud https://on.soundcloud.com/Fz25tkaPAy6KqohWA

**help action positive change by signing the petition for credit systems for people with chronic pain available at the bottom of this blog article** Mood Depressed. Fine: £80. Chronic pain disabilities are always penalised the worst. We can't predict flare ups or when it won't be safe to drive so we don't get to give the motability scheme 48hrs notice.  We're not 'ill' we are disabled. Unfortunately we don't get fair treatment and can't have a 'credit system' where we can re-arrange driving lessons on days we have flare ups and today was a very expensive day for me as I'm down £80. I feel 'fined' for being disabled because the instructor I was working with and paid upfront prior to the motability driving instructor scheme can't re-arrange the driving lesson neither. So I've been 'fined' today for the unpredictability of my disability, double the fee the motability scheme charge. When money is hard to come by, and it...

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Got dressed up super girly, kawaii aesthetic and wore pink glittery eyelashes, had a wonderful meal on New Years Day at my parents house with my partner Peter and my brother and his wife. My son was in his room on his PS5 so I don't actually know when I'll see my son's face again, jokes, but he's happy and that's all that matters. Peter sat in with me as I took my motability car for a spin, drove to a near town and back and did really well so I'm really proud of myself and how I'm progressing. Still have a few things to iron out but for the time I've driven, I'm doing really well and that's a good thing. I just need more road experience and time behind the wheel and things will start to come more natural to me. Bud had a good Christmas and New Year and was spoilt with treats and Peter took me to hotel chocolat yesterday and got me the biggest hot chocolate I've ever seen and it was amazing. This week's been a busy one and we went to see W...