PGP / SPD My story:

The time Junction 7 a charity said this to me "But she looked fine at Ayclive" (when I could still go) lmao  and held my food parcel to ransom (years ago) because I wanted to help my community with delivery for elderly and disabled and they claimed that was me slxgging them off lol.  #ableism I avoid any charities that make my life harder now. I don't forget when and how and who has treated me badly, I just advocate so others don't have to endure the same mistreatment, and I'm glad I'm nothing like those who #harmed me when I needed #help instead. ❤️❤️❤️ I never dared ask them for help ever again and never have, and have had their supporters supporting this mistreatment and hating on me.  Tells me everything.  Sarah Wingfield  KawaiiDollDecora.uk

New Drip! 🔥🪓 K•Doll Merch Has Landed The Dark Carnival wardrobe just got a little louder. 🎪💗🖤 I’ve been building more of the K•Doll universe, and that now includes a growing collection of merch inspired by the music, the clown persona, the artwork and the community around it. From K•Doll clothing and mugs to coasters, plushies, gift bags and original designs, there’s a little bit of chaos for everyone. Some pieces are bright, cute and unmistakably K•Doll, while others lean into the darker horrorcore/Juggalo side of the project. One of my favourites is the “Stay Clownin’” design — because if there’s one thing K•Doll is going to do, it’s stay unapologetically weird. 😂🤡 There’s also my “I’m proud of my sober homies” artwork, dedicated to openhearted Juggalos and recovery support. That one means something deeper to me. Community isn’t only about the music or aesthetic; it’s about showing up for people, celebrating progress and reminding people that they still belong. K•Doll has alwa...

POTS Is Not “Just a Fast Heart Rate” My heart rate was 88 bpm. I stood up. It went to 134 bpm within four minutes. That’s a rise of 46 beats per minute just from changing position. For adults, one of the diagnostic features of Postural Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) is a sustained increase in heart rate of 30 bpm or more within 10 minutes of standing, alongside symptoms of orthostatic intolerance and without the significant blood pressure drop that would point more towards orthostatic hypotension. So while one smartwatch reading alone does not diagnose POTS, a jump like 88 → 134 bpm shows exactly why simply standing can be difficult. Thankfully, I have been diagnosed and have managed my POTS for years now. And this is something people often misunderstand. Someone with POTS can sometimes manage sitting, moving around or even walking better than standing still. That doesn’t mean the condition is mild. It means the body is having to work differently to keep blood circulating properly while u...

  We Are the Dark Carnival — So Start Acting Like Fam When people talk about celebrities, artists or anyone with a bit of notoriety, there’s often so much negativity attached to it. That isn’t what I want K•Doll to be remembered for. I want people to remember me as the hype girl. The weird creative clown with creativity running through her blood, but also someone who made people feel good about themselves. I want people to be able to say: “I remember when K•Doll told me my hair looked amazing.” “I remember when K•Doll told me to stay strong when I was struggling.” “I remember when K•Doll shared my music.” “I remember feeling like she was actually in my corner.” That’s the legacy I want. I already have some notoriety, and I actually downplay a hell of a lot of what I’ve achieved. I’ve been internationally published as an alternative model and built platforms across creative, professional and community spaces. But I don’t walk into a room screaming my CV at people. Most people who m...

When an Autistic Brain Can’t Just “Move On” Just because an autistic or otherwise neurodivergent person is still talking about something that hurt them does not automatically mean they are attention-seeking, dramatic, “obsessed,” or refusing to move on. Sometimes the brain genuinely has not finished processing what happened. Rumination is when the mind keeps circling back to the same event, conversation, question or feeling, often trying to understand it, make sense of it, work out what should have happened differently, or resolve something that still feels unfinished. For autistic people, this can be especially intense because several autistic traits can make painful or confusing situations much harder to mentally put down. Perseveration can make it difficult to disengage from a thought once it has become emotionally significant. Monotropic attention can cause the brain to focus very deeply on a small number of things at once. If one of those things is an unresolved conflict, injustic...

DARVO, AuDHD and Why Community Groups Can Become So Difficult Community groups are supposed to help people feel connected, informed and safe... But they can quickly become difficult when personal loyalties, gossip, misunderstandings and group politics take over. For autistic and ADHD people, those environments can be especially difficult because communication differences are often judged as attitude. AuDHD people may communicate directly, take words literally, struggle with unspoken social rules, become overwhelmed by conflict or feel a strong need to correct something that is unfair or inaccurate. That can create a familiar problem: The original behaviour gets ignored, while the neurodivergent person's reaction becomes the main issue. That is exactly what happened to me recently, and the person involved used a very recognisable DARVO pattern. What is DARVO? DARVO stands for: Deny — deny, minimise or reframe the behaviour being challenged. Attack — turn attention onto the person ...