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It's been a wonderful Easter weekend!

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I got to spend some amazing time with my son today and he's so funny and growing up so much! He brought me a little golden bunny today bless him and him and the dog are so cute together. He had his Easter egg off me already and it was just a nice surprise to see him today. It's also so nice to see how happy and bouncy Bud is these days now he's settled in and the little fur baby has definitely captured my heart, he was making me laugh so hard jumping on the bed with his rope this morning and right now as it's quarter to 9pm he is snuggling close to my leg. Ponyo is getting slowly bigger as long as he leaves eating bubbles alone bless! I love that little axolotl just as much! He's had my life so many times ahaha! I also choked on a dry potato wedge during tea and I've just overcome that ahaha. So I'm typing this watery eyed having coughed for way too long and why do my arms ache!  Anyways, overall it's been a great Easter and I made more progress on my ca

Easter Bikes 🐰:

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It was nice to see the motorbikes out today, doing the Easter Egg Charity Run, thankfully I can watch from my window ahaha, but another day, another dilly-dally or whatever the saying is ahaha. I joke, I know it's another dollar. My dad's usually amongst them but my uncle still was! πŸ™ŒπŸΌ Speaking of motorbikes lol, I'm just running on fumes at the moment, I have had some bad flare ups, I am excited my son's coming over and I've done a lot of tidying and prepping and further work on current projects. My mind runs too fast that it's hard to keep up ahaha! I start my charity work soon too as an official volunteer so I'm pleased about that too. But I do get to do a lot of amazing creative things because of my weird little mind, and I'm enjoying my art journey, and learning as venture forth. Ahaha. I am on Aycliffe Radio soon,  I'm currently working on a book for awareness in regards to disabilities and mental health conditions,  I'm illustrating a ch

Wirestock Art Journey: (Mystery solved!)

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So .. Having set up wirestock, and paid that setting up fee for portfolio access for a year and 200 uploads, I thought I was all set for my stock image journey. Turns out I was wrong. A customer has come forth to me having purchased the image I was excited about selling recently, and explained that they did not pay $5 for the digital licence / print (which $3.50 seems reasonable commission on) and that wirestock did in fact charge them $30.50. They are more mortified than I am on the commission I've earned and think I should sell all my stock images via email. Any other wirestock users here want to talk us through your own personal experiences, because my art journey will be documented in a book and published online and this is an important factor of it. Thank you. Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ Author/Blogger/Artist Disability Advocate @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡ #wirestock #commissions #art #kindnessmatters #DisabilityPositive #Disabilityinclusion #fairroyalties

Stock images:

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  ~Bird and Trees~ I have been experimenting with Wirestock and so far I'm really pleased with the results. Here are three images I created that were nature inspired, peaceful, tranquil. I love bold colours but I'm working hard on my portfolio! I appreciate all support. ~Lilac Flowers~ ~Orange Flower~ @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡ #DisabilityPositive Art

Shop Searches, Online Discussions and Misunderstandings:

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I read something today that had me totally flabbergasted, especially at the amount of comments saying that "If people are innocent it should not be an issue." I wanted to enlighten them on how it can be an issue and that the majority of people who would have such an issue are disabled or neurodivergent individuals. Before I get to what I stated (which was still taken the wrong way by an NHS nurse who thought it was an attack) I will give you a sample of one of many reasons shops give women anxiety. Teenage me: I remember being really nervous about buying my own teen underwear when I was 14/15. I was in Durham and had been to Claire's accessories, whilst my friends were distracted I popped over the road to an empty lingerie shop and had a look at all the things like thongs etc that were new to me and I considered trying, the security guard was a total bulldog, hovered over me, overly creepy and then when I was about to purchase something he asked me to leave. I nearly burs

Veterans charity canvas request:

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I'm so excited about this project! I'm working on setting up the canvas request for the veterans charity. This one is pretty delicate and I have everything ready.  S. Xo Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ Image of blue paintbrushes against a white canvas with a pencil grid. Taken by KawaiiDollDecora. Mar 29th. 2024. #paintbrushes # paintbrushesready #canvasready #charity #disabledartist #kawaiidolldecora #originalcanvas

Journey Officially Started:

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 πŸ«ΆπŸΌI hope my customer enjoys their purchase.🫢🏼 My journey on wirestock has *officially* just started.  So if anyone would like to see a certain type of creation please let me know so I can design some for you. Thank you everyone for all of your support to even get to this point, I keep chasing my dreams and putting one foot in front of the other, dedicating time and hard work into everything I create and I was blessed with this little gift today. Someone out there is enjoying a beautiful creation that I designed with wirestock and that just puts a smile on my face. I know that there is a fee taken off the commissions so I'll know more once things start taking off better but for today, I'm on top of the world. I feel seen. Appreciated. I feel like I'm supported and my works being enjoyed. I needed his encouragement today, so bless you to the wonderful individual who has enjoyed my work. S.W. xoxo Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡

Happy Good Friday/Easter Everyone!

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 ~Happy Easter~ Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ I hope you 🫡🏼🫡🏿🫡🏽🫢🏼 all, have a Wonderful Easter/Eostre weekend! 🩷✨ @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡ #goodfriday #Easter #EasterWeekend #disabledartist #aiartcommunity #wirestock #kawaiidolldecora #positivevibesonly #kindnessmatters #eostre #goddessofbirds #eastereggs #Spring #MotherNature #fypγ‚·゚viral #fypγ‚· #fypγ‚·viralγ‚·2024 #Bright #Bold #Bunnies #Rabbit #standtogether #resilience #selfworth

Avoid People who Hate:

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 ~Avoid People who Hate~ What do I mean by this? I definitely don't mean people who are brave enough to speak out about someone or something that harmed them in some way, I'm talking about people who go out of their way to segregate, people who do everything in their power to judge and hate on people instead of respecting that people are different. If they're so quick to judge and hate from plastic pedestals that will eventually break, then you don't need them and their toxic energy around you. They want to dictate and hate, and others choose to use their energy better, to action positive change. Time wasted away telling the world what they think they should and should not do, or who to be, when they are simply avoiding the mirror of truth. They need to do inner work to realise that hating and sabotaging and being unfair deals a toxic ripple effect that will be noticed. Same as kindness causes a ripple effect and changes more than one person's life. A small complime

Onwards I go:

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  Image: AI generated fae image from the mind of Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷 I started my art journey with AI recently and as a disabled artist whose eager to gain as much independence as is possible, I have decided to invest in a year of wirestock access and I've updated my website. I'm creating a range of cute and quirky, varied, images and I'm even selling a collection of my own art pieces I created.  Let's hope that the images I've created get approved to go live on stock images websites and let's hope I can try and create some wonderful images that people just relate to sooo much that they have to have!  I can dare to dream lol. I work hard and I've spent all day with this new project. I'm exhausted and despite my awful flare up I've done what I can to help build my brand as well as gain a decent network for positive change. I can't wait to work on this book! People need to hear our stories and need to know what it's really like for us!  I wan

Safe Spaces:

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 "We need the safe spaces to allow ourselves to feel, acknowledge, appreciate and heal. Only then are we truly free from our emotions controlling us. We can be stronger and we can do better. Don't hold it in, hold it gently, weigh it a little, let it process and once you have, let it go. Xx" Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ #positive #healing #bekindtoyourmind #staycalm #deepbreaths #yougotthis #safeapaces #AiKawaii #disabledartist #kawaiiaesthetic #kawaiidolldecora #aiartcommunity #cyute #disabilityadvocate #support 

~Kitty Support~

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 ~Kitty Support~ Some cuteness to end what was a very painful Tuesday for me...  This is the Kitty Love and Support Cat, it brings you good energy and positive vibes if you see it in your feed or on your timeline. 🌈✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ I had a bad pain day and I'm fatigued, you just have to keep finding ways through it and finding little ways to keep you smiling and laughing through it. I would never wish pain such as this on anyone and I'm very stiff and sore all because I wanted to remember what it was like to dance, even though I barely danced and I had my stick and I've seriously hurt myself, I regret nothing. Life is an experience, I'll recover from this, but that memory of dancing will last forever. It will always exist and I will always appreciate the chance I had to enjoy it.  Just need to stay strong through this time of bad pain and flare ups and remember I still got out the house and I still made some amazing memories as well as remembered why I absolutely love my home t

Life is complicated and definitely for living:

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~New Chapters~ Connor has been a great support to me and we've had a lot of deep soul searching talks where we are working together on making our lives better. We've clashed and made mistakes but we're working together towards a more positive and brighter future for us both. I'm not easy to deal with sometimes, I struggle with my disabilities and have CPTSD etc and Connor has ADHD (which I also likely have) and having talked about the way we get hyper fixated etc we have found better ways of getting one another's attention so neither of us feel so alone or ignored. We both love one another and we've both been working on our own mental health and boundaries. So far I think we've had a lot of lessons learned and we can start again from a place of deeper understanding. That's what's important. I know I don't have to write or say anything but I know a lot of people that care about me may feel the need to be outspoken about this choice, please remembe

Captain Dead legs of the Pirate crew "dilly-dally":

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I'm so mad at myself lmao. I enjoyed myself so much at that 90's party that my legs are dead and tight and stiff and pulled and I'm practically useless right now. Guess it's a good job I had a pretty clear calendar apart from illustrations work and writing then isn't it?! However it does mean that I can't do much in the house at the moment, I have fed Ponyo, made sure Bud has food and water and has been let out but I am walking like a pirate with two wooden legs ahaha! Definitely not a fun sight! I'm also fed up of recent dizzy spells. Maybe have a head cold. πŸ˜† Ah, as is life with disabilities... Kind reminders for days like these: (See pic at bottom) S. xo Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ #blogger #author #artist #wasnicetogetout #nineties #littlewins #nostalgia #party #disabilityinclusion #disabledartist #rest #restdaysmatter #yourenotuseless #taketimetoheal #ouch  Image: selfcarexpress: Remember (positive post)

The disabled lottery:

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Being disabled lottery!... What hurts today?! I've pulled both my calf muscles, my neck and I have a bad tummy for some reason... So don't mind me if I spend a lot more down time staring at the skies and trees than this screen, there's just too much hate and nastiness in both the real and online worlds for lil' ol' me... S. xo  Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ #believeinyourself #rest #disabilityawareness #disabilitysupport #disabilityinclusion #mentalhealthawareness #staykind #downtime #relax #nature

I stand out: magnet for strangers hate:

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I get a lot of hate from people who don't take a second to get to know me. I stand out. I get it. You want to express your freedom of expression, even if it's hateful and misguided. Just don't get so butthurt when some of us have better things to do than sit here and try and explain ourselves to people who don't want to listen and just want any excuse to hate. We should never water ourselves down, we're losing the art of reading to learn and understand as opposed to reading to reply. I'm a blogger, an author, writer, poet, artist and most importantly a mother. I have a life beyond the screen and how I choose to live my life isn't actually anyone's business. If I'm not for you that's fine, do what I do and avoid people who aren't for you, but the fact I've had to take down my reviews because of hate campaigns and people who are so willing to harass a stranger without just cause or even looking at the evidence is unreal. I'm different s

You can't judge people you don't know:

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  New AI generated edit: ~You can't judge people you don't know~ Nice Positive message today! Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ See bottom of this post for original vs edit. Thank you for your support. As a disabled artist I seriously appreciate your support and shares!  If you are anti - AI then I respect that but please respect my right not to be. πŸ˜‰ I am both an original artist and AI generator/editor now. ✨✨✨ #disabilityinclusion #kawaiidolldecora #yougotthis #judge #judgement #support #dontknow #strangers #negativeenergy #staykind #scrollon #motivation #disabledartist #chronicpain #fypγ‚· #fypage

Finally got out of the house ☺️

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I had an amazing time and was reminded why I love my hometown so very much! Everyone was dancing and raving like it was the 90s again. It's hard for me, trying to find where my place is in the world and realising I don't really have one so I need to make one. Ahaha.  I am undiagnosed Neurodivergent. I have Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction gap of 10.9mm (no longer use a wheelchair out of stubbornness and now walk with a walking stick) of course with the good pain management clinic I have now. Ehlers Danlos Hypermobility Syndrome. PTSD. type 2 diabetes, Depression, anxiety and a lot more. With two worlds to navigate now the energy vampires seem to slowly take over both, draining you and being as negative as they can be. I don't understand strangers or their need to force their negativity onto others. They can scroll on lol. They would never have time to be negative if they were me, they'd be too busy balancing all these conditions!! ahaha! and yet I do so many positive life ch

A smile does not mean I'm not in pain:

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Since I'm being brave enough to leave the house today, here are some reminders from a wonderful artist known as @Colourblind_Zebra ! If you see me actually enjoying myself, please don't ruin it. Don't say I'm faking, don't say I look fine, just keep your opinions to yourself and allow me to have fun. I'm attending a foam party on my hometown, it's 90s themed and I have picked out my clothes already! I'm excited for once! πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌ Thanks ♿ Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ #positivityiskey #disabilityawareness #disabilityinclusion Image: collage of Colourblind_Zebra's art pieces. Image: clothes sorted for 90s insanity event!

I am Disabled, Not a Burden:

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✨✨✨ I'm an artist exploring AI recently... I modified a generated piece to become a sticker recently for disability positivity and awareness and I am currently enjoying my AI journey despite some people thinking I need to hear their opinions on things they clearly don't understand or know. So if they're anti AI they won't like me cause I like accessibility ♿ and AI art makes art more accessible and you can use generated art for inspiration or resources and more. Art is freedom of expression and somewhere between commercialising Art people seem to have forgotten this. S. Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ ---- ~I am Disabled 🚫 Not a burden~ Today's Microsoft AI generated image, AI generated by KawaiiDollDecora 🩷 and the edited version next to it, basic image editing app. (Polish). Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡ #neon #notaburden #disabled #AI #Edits #DisabilityPositive #artexperimentation #kawaiidolldecora #positivityiskey #disabilit

Art Experimentation:

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 So as an artist I'm experimenting on this art journey and I've generated Microsoft AI and then I'm putting my own art styled spin on them to create more inclusive and diverse characters. This is one I'm working on modifying right now. I guess we have to embrace the future now and this is an interesting little avenue I'm exploring... ... definitely cute! Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ #exploring #editing #mixedart #aiart #aiedits #stickers #cute #disabilityinclusion #disabilityawareness #accessibility  Left of the image: the AI generated art based on my prompts. Right of the image: my modification of the AI art and changing and editing it to make it more supportive and into a support sticker. Editing the hair and eyes and design too. This is definitely a new avenue to explore.

Access Denied: ⛔♿⛔

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So... after a very rigorous few days trying to damage control all the harassment and trolling I've received, I was so pleased to hear my friend tell me I can just turn off reviews. That solved that issue since people cannot be trusted to behave behind their screens, it was best to deny access altogether. Image:  a screenshot of the post notification that reviews have been disabled. --------------- If you're anti-AI then you won't like me tbh because I embrace all art that allows accessibility. Accessibility is important.♿ I use Microsoft personally and I generated this Disability Positive/ Access Denied Kawaii Doll art. Art is freedom of expression and aslong as we can express ourselves and create things others can relate, then we're doing our job as artists. I will always declare what is AI and what isn't. Respect differences. Microsoft sought consent for participating artists. Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ #AI #AIart #kawaiidoll #accessdenied #aigenerated #prompts #cute

Trolls, fake narratives and manipulation:

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This is what I'm going through right now and I don't have any fake profiles and I don't have a clue what they're asking me to stop. I'm not even doing anything to stop lol. I just do art, share things for my community, build others up, manage my pain condition, declutter my home, study, and I'm definitely not a technological genius octopus and I don't want any more social media accounts. The ones I have already give me a headache lol. People suck sometimes. Why would I want more profiles?! Lol. All I've done is gather evidence and blog like I always do. I blocked James because I feel like they're my ex bestie on a fake account and only jumped on the hate campaign because kitty (a kink page) created it in the first place. It's not rocket science. Just facts. It's not my fault peoples behaviours can be shown clearly and trolling my reviews won't change anything. In fact all it does is prove my points further and cements the facts that the p

If all you did today was get out of bed:

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 ~If all you did today was get out of bed then, I'm still so proud of you!~ Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ @KawaiiDollDecora ♡ www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk ♡ #kawaii #zebra #zebradisabilities #kawaiidolldecora #disabledartist #improudofyou #lifeishard #struggles #chronicillness #chronicillnesswarrior #chronicfatigue #invisibleillness #DisabilityInclusion #DisabilityAwareness #dontjudge #cute #different #animal #advocate #bloggerlife #staykind

Strong people:

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We aren't strong ALL the time, we just don't quit, we look for silver linings and we turn them into rainbows. We re-align and re-adjust and all any of us can do is our best! πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ©· Being different doesn't always mean 'enemy'. Cause people claim I can't agree to disagree doesn't make it true. Hating on me for not being controlled or dictated to and using my own mind isn't being kind. Self reflection is the key to inner development and positive change within our souls. If I'm not for you that's fine, but regurgitating false narratives to justify your poor behaviour isn't going to change anything. I'm sorry if I'm not your cup of tea but I won't apologise for being honest, authentic and genuinely fighting for change. We need safe spaces and thoughtful communication and if you're incapable of that then that's a YOU issue you need to work on. Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ #different #controversial #artist #psychology #humanesociety #

I saw you needed an extra spoon:

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  Butyoudontlooksick was a website that became quite popular in 2003-2006 because of the spoon theory, a lupus sufferer created to help her friend to understand her disabilities. She used spoons as a metaphor for energy. Every action one takes needed a spoon, and they're very easily run out. Some of us have limited energy and want to do the best with our time. We don't have time to waste like others do, we don't have time to hate or sabotage, we use our time carefully because it's precious to us. With dynamic disabilities our abilities change daily and we have to pace ourselves, we have to choose between things that need to be done and try and prioritise things that have deadlines over things that can be sorted later. It's not easy to try and balance life like this. I just want people to know I understand and I see you. I created this art to offer energy and positive vibes as a little 'pick me up' to anyone struggling lately. We all need more spoons! πŸ˜… Make

Be an advocate for Positive Change:

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 πŸͺ¬πŸ§ΏπŸͺ¬πŸ§ΏπŸͺ¬πŸ§ΏπŸͺ¬πŸ§ΏπŸͺ¬πŸ§ΏπŸͺ¬ For everyone who has ever been misunderstood. For everyone who has ever felt not good enough. I see you. I see you. You are loved and this is where you can start to heal and find your spirit tribe. Here it is all about open mindedness, kindness and good vibes ✨ Welcome to Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷✨ /Blogger/Artist/ /Disability Positive/ /Author/Poet/ I also study to educate myself better, tutor my son, act in amateur dramatics, do volunteer work and mess around making amateur songs because I am not afraid to suck at something I don't know how to do! πŸ™ŒπŸΌ Nice to meet you! ✨πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ©· πŸͺ¬πŸ§ΏπŸͺ¬πŸ§ΏπŸͺ¬πŸ§ΏπŸͺ¬πŸ§ΏπŸͺ¬πŸ§ΏπŸͺ¬ ~Artwork: You need a dose of Vitamin Me~ An artistic take on kindness and creativity. Hope you like! -S🩷✨ Xoxo xoxO

Nature πŸ‚

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 #nature I love meditation and incense and a calm breeze blowing at me and I love it even more when the sun chooses to shine! I have just been relaxing and enjoying the air and clouds, skies birds and trees. My dog Bud keeps sneeking up to lie next to me in the sun and I think more people need to put their phones down and just enjoy the fact that they're alive, no matter what's happening in your life, still be grateful you get to be here to experience it. Life is hard for us all. We need to slow down and learn to ground ourselves and enjoy the present, as kung fu panda says: 'Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery, but Today is a gift. That is why it is called the present." And people leave their presence behind when they pass on, again why life is such a gift, as it has pieces of everything and everyone that has ever lived, whether people can see them or not. They're there. A song hummed by the great, great, granddaughter of the original singer, plants people

Never judge an author by her shell:

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 #neverjudgesomeoneelsespain Ok since people don't understand what one of my disabilities means, I've created a visual representation to help people see the difference between an abled bodied persons pelvis, and mine. Only I choose to walk on mine despite the agony and I manage with medicinal cannabis to do so. It allowed me to get out of my wheelchair and gain much needed freedom. I worked hard for all of this and I'm no stranger to loss.  Words can't break someone's spirit when they live with this daily. I also have Ehlers Danlos Hypermobility Syndrome aka (EDhS) so yay me. πŸ˜… Higher inflammation means more bruising sensations and feeling bruised in general, swelling and easy to bruise, pulled muscles, ligaments, tendons, etc. So when I say I know pain , my words actually hold weight. As someone with CPTSD (only PTSD diagnosed) I am also someone whose navigated some very traumatic seas and as the captain of my own ship, I am proud to have overcome EVERYTHING

To all women:

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Since it's women's history month let's talk about all the things women should not say or do to other women. I know I know, I'm a positive person, why am I talking about this? Because sisters should support sisters no matter what. πŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌ Different perspectives? So what, let's go for a coffee and giggle about hello Kitty. Trans? I don't judge people like that so if you're a kind human that's all I need to know let's go to build a bear together! 🩷 We don't have to agree to be respectful.🩷 Ok so this is basically gaslighting terms too and things I'm sick of seeing and hearing: These views are harmful: "You only use your disability to gain followers and attention" I am my disability and it is me. There's no separation. "You harass people so I'm harrassing and sabotaging you"  Yes this is a recent experience and I harass no one. I deal with things directly and I have a right to defend myself against pointless hat