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 Taking a Break ❤️ I’m taking a social media break again. My mental health isn’t doing well — not after everything I’ve had to face over the last year and more. I can’t make others stand for what they preach, even though I try. I can’t make others care, or stop being harmful, even though I try. And I’ve never asked for any of it. I’m doing my best to fix where others are going wrong. If people choose to bully or exclude, that’s on them — not me. I don’t condone it, and it’s heartbreaking, because I know deep down that we are stronger together. If more people stood for what they preached, the world would already be a better place. I don’t condone emotional abuse, ostracism, or hate campaigns — and I never will. So I’m carving my own piece of the world for those who are authentic, genuine, and actually care about people and community. That’s all I can do. You don’t see the harm it causes behind the scenes. You judge from your screens — but it doesn’t matter until it’s you being mistr...

 Thank you to all my followers and following! We have reached 6.3k today! 🎉 I am very grateful and blessed to have the support that I have and I am super grateful of all of those who choose to help others, work together, and action positive change! 🙏🏻❤️  We need more of that - in this heavy world.  Sarah Wingfield. A heartfelt thank you! #Support #appreciationpost Alt text: A bright, colourful social media profile for Sarah Wingfield (@KawaiiDollDecora). The background features a stylish pink room with neon text on the wall that reads “HELLO THERE.” The profile photo shows Sarah with pink hair, glasses, and cat-ear filters, framed by a blue circle. The design is decorated with playful emojis — a rainbow with a star, a purple heart, and a party face emoji — against a pink patterned backdrop. Her profile details read: Sarah Wingfield 6.3K followers • 5.6K following Artist / Blogger / Producer / Author / Actress / Disability Advocate / Positive Change ♿ / Music Artist 🎵✨...

 💔 When Exclusion Is Emotional Abuse — Especially by Those in Power Emotional abuse isn’t always loud. Sometimes it looks like refusal to communicate, public exclusion, and deliberate silence from people who know exactly how much it hurts. When councillors, community figures, or organisations ignore messages, refuse inclusion, and block disabled or vulnerable people from participating, that’s not “professional distance” — that’s emotional abuse through ostracism. It’s the kind of abuse that says: “You don’t matter.” “Your voice isn’t welcome.” And when it’s done repeatedly, it chips away at your confidence, your trust, and your sense of belonging. This is institutional cruelty — when people with power choose to punish others through silence instead of resolving issues with fairness and humanity. 🌱 How to Protect Your Mental Health Acknowledge what it is. Repeated exclusion and refusal to engage — especially from officials or organisations — is emotional harm. Recognising it as ab...

It’s been a year. A year of hate campaigns, ostracising, and bullying — and still, no one is being held to account. No communication. No community support. Councillors Hawkins and Hill joined in the hate campaigns and chose harmful behaviour alongside some other Newtonians - because elitism and ego and harm; appear to be more important than being a community supporter or helping the town or community. Great Aycliffe Town Council I am still being excluded and bullied by Cllr Hawkins and Cllr Hill. I don't understand what makes grown men follow orders off someone else to be harmful to their community instead of helpful. It's disgusting. Heartbreaking 💔.  All of our #community matters. Had to complain - not that it will do much as Durham County Council tend to side with abusers these days and those who harm and ostracise and silence disabled voices - than help them and ask accountability of those on their staff. #kindnessmatters People should make sure that their actions are kin...

On Bad Days: Remembering Your Own Kindness Some days, the world feels heavier than usual. Your thoughts swirl in loops, your energy runs dry, and even the smallest tasks feel like mountains. These are the days when being kind to yourself matters most. It’s okay to slow down. It’s okay to pause. You don’t need to be productive, positive, or “fixed” today. Just being you in this moment is enough. Bad days don’t define you. They don’t erase your strength, your resilience, or the love and effort you pour into yourself and others. They are simply part of the human experience, a reminder that life isn’t always smooth—and that’s perfectly okay. So today, be gentle with yourself. Speak to yourself as you would to a friend who is hurting. Allow space for your feelings without judgement. Take the smallest steps that feel nurturing—whether that’s drinking a warm cup of tea, journalling a few lines, or simply breathing deeply. Remember, kindness towards yourself is never a weakness. It is the quie...

 #announcement  https://kawaiidolldecora.uk/aycliffe-alternative Aycliffe Alternative Magazine: Our team is made up of people who’ve been pushed out of community projects, silenced, ostracised, and sabotaged — people who refused to compromise their morals just to fit in. We’re the ones who still stand for what’s right, even when it costs us. Many of the people featured in our magazine are those you won’t find highlighted elsewhere. Not because they haven’t tried — but because they’ve been mistreated, lied about, or left behind by those meant to represent the community. We believe no one deserves abandonment or blacklisting, especially when their hard work directly benefits our town. We came together to create a space for everyone. We don’t exclude anyone — ever. Our mission isn’t about popularity or politics; it’s about people.  We believe every voice deserves to be heard, and every contribution to our town deserves recognition. While we still try to engage and collaborat...

We Did It! Aycliffe Alternative Magazine is Here Early! We’re thrilled to announce that the first issue of Aycliffe Alternative Magazine has been released ahead of schedule! A massive thank you to all the organisations, community events, and amazing individuals who got involved — your support and contributions made this possible. 📖 Read it online here: 👉 https://kawaiidolldecora.uk/aycliffe-alternative We can’t wait to bring you more fantastic content celebrating our local community. If you have any suggestions, stories, or ideas, don’t hesitate to reach out — we’d love to hear from you! 📱 Follow us on Facebook: 👉 https://www.facebook.com/AycliffeAlternative With gratitude, Sarah Wingfield Editor - Aycliffe Alternative Magazine  #community #allvoicesmatter #representation #communitysupport #aycliffealternativemagazine  Image below: contents page of issue 01 of Aycliffe Alternative Magazine:

Not Their Enemy, Just Their Reminder: Some people see genuine support as a threat because they’ve been too busy being maladaptive, nepotistic, and sabotaging others while pretending to help. They weaponise their so-called “support” to harm, and they don’t want those they’ve pushed out of the community — their self-proclaimed elite — to have a real voice. They thrive on ostracising, silencing, and blacklisting others. I’ve lived it, so of course I get trolled and attacked for running a magazine that gives everyone a voice and refuses to leave anyone out. Because of a false community protection notice I received, there are now two organisations and a company I can’t publish about in the magazine. My genuine support for them was met with lies, manipulation, and abuse — and I can’t be involved with them anymore. I still write about the reality of what happens. I prefer positive and uplifting posts, but I can’t control how others behave — I can only call it out and focus on the spaces that ...

Standing Strong in Truth: Amplifying Voices and Building Change I’m working hard piecing articles together, and I’m doing it for the right reasons — accessibility and community.  No matter how much you try or how much you give, there will always be those who can’t see your authenticity or kindness, who mislabel you simply because they want to not like you.  To that I say: stand strong in your truth. Keep going. Keep helping. Keep giving — until you’ve helped so many that their words are buried by the change you’ve created. I’m only just getting started, and I will amplify the voices that deserve recognition. I’m not biased — that’s my character, and I stand firmly on that. Nepotism and hate campaigns serve no real purpose. If you feel the need to make war, don’t drag me into it. Thank you. — Sarah ❤️ Independent Disability Advocate  #disabilityinclusion #strongertogether #disability #disabilityawareness #disabilitysupport #disabilityrights Alt text: A woman with pink hair...

Aycliffe Alternative Magazine: A Fresh Voice for Our Community: Newton Aycliffe is about to welcome a brand-new publication — Aycliffe Alternative Magazine, a community-led project offering a fresh and creative take on local life. The magazine aims to showcase the diverse spirit of the town, blending the alternative with the everyday. Readers can expect features on tattoos, local art, and creative expression, alongside wholesome community stories, charity updates, and highlights of businesses and places worth visiting. The first issue, due out in October 2025, will be available in accessible PDF format, making it easy for residents to read, share, and enjoy. Editor Sarah Wingfield, who also runs Aycliffe Uncensored, explained: “This is an alternative and up-and-coming magazine for those who want to be in the know about all the cool places to frequent. But it’s also about community — giving space to stories, ideas, and voices that don’t always get heard.” The team behind the magazine ar...

Newton News/Newton Press, representation matters: To my friends who were waiting to see my Disability Awareness Speech photos with The Rotary Newton Aycliffe in the Newton News — I’m sorry to say I haven’t been printed again. Newton Press has failed to represent myself, my work, and my community. I had hoped this would be a chance to build bridges, to move past how poorly I’ve been treated in the past, and to ensure that our disabled community has a fair voice. I was even willing to repair those bridges and take down my factual review of my mistreatment if the paper had shown a sign of wanting resolution — by being fair, accessible, and inclusive towards myself and our disabled community. Sadly, that hasn’t happened. Personal biases clearly exist, and it seems they can’t be resolved — you can’t reason with the unreasonable. I’m sharing this here because I am a Newtonian, because the work I do matters, and because the people I help matter. The speech was a step in the right direction to...

Disability Advocacy Changes Lives ❤️ Disability advocacy means everything to me. It isn’t just about words — it’s about action. It’s about refusing to stay quiet when people are discriminated against, ignored, or mistreated. That’s why I created and shared this graphic today. Because people still need reminding that: Disability advocacy means fighting for the rights, inclusion, and equality of people with disabilities. It is about challenging discrimination and barriers, and promoting accessibility and independence for all. That’s what I live by. That’s what I fight for. Recently, my advocacy has looked like: Delivering my Disability Awareness Speech, sparking honest conversations about accessibility, the social model of disability, and how society must change. Working as an Independent Visitor for children in care, standing alongside them so they know they have someone in their corner when the system feels overwhelming. Supporting people when they face housing gatekeeping, making sure...

Unfortunately after waiting until yesterday when my initial complaint was made in July 2025 I have had no choice but to escalate the discrimination I received and sabotage by Durham County Council and DurhamEnable to an ombudsman. No accountability received as of yet. Sarah Wingfield  Independent Disability Advocate  #disabilityinclusion #strongertogether #disability #disabilityawareness #disabilitysupport #disabilityrights #autismacceptance #autismawareness 

Dog Bins Reinstated at Tees Barrage – A Small Win for Our Community Last year I contacted Stockton Council about the lack of dog bins at Tees Barrage. For many of us who walk there regularly, especially dog owners, the absence of bins had become a real issue. It made it harder to keep the area clean and safe, and such a well-loved space deserves better. I’m really pleased to share that the council have now worked with the Canal and River Trust , who own the Barrage, to reinstate bins in the area. It might seem like a small step, but it’s an important one for our community. This is a reminder that raising concerns does make a difference. When local people speak up and councils take action, we can create positive change — even in the everyday things that affect our environment and wellbeing. A big thank you to everyone involved for listening and making this happen. Hopefully this sets the tone for further improvements to our shared spaces. Previous blogs: https://pgpandspd.blogspot.com...

I need five more supporters on this campaign: Could one be YOU?! 🫵🏻😊✨ #LegalisePepperSpray https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/742673/sponsors/new?token=58HvqjhNhqF8wEQyxN7G Legalise Pepper Spray for Self-Defence in England Why this matters: Every day across England, people – especially women, disabled people, and survivors of domestic abuse – are left vulnerable to harassment, assault, and violence. Reports of harassment and sexual offences on public transport have surged. People are being threatened at bus stops and in public spaces. Domestic abuse is still at epidemic levels – and too many victims are left defenceless while waiting for help. Police response times can stretch into hours, leaving victims exposed and unprotected. Right now, the law treats pepper spray as if it were a firearm. That means ordinary people have no legal way to carry even the most basic tool of self-defence. What we’re asking for: We call on the UK Government to: ✅ Legalise and regulate pepper spray...

My new Disability Advocating Petition to the UK government has been supported and is now queued! Thank you!  Alt text: Neon graffiti-style text on a dark brick wall reads “FULLY LEGALISE” in glowing blue and pink, and “MEDICAL CANNABIS” in bright green, with paint splatters around the letters. https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/742000/sponsors/new?token=6DN8zRHQgtDVaCERP9iJ Please help 🙏🏻  #medical  Allow medical cannabis users a card to purchase cannabis at pharmacies and choose how they administer it. Background: Medical cannabis is already legal in the UK, but in practice, access is severely limited. Patients face long waits, high costs, and inconsistent supply chains. This delays treatment, causes unnecessary suffering, and increases hospital admissions that could be prevented if patients had reliable access to their medication. What we want: We are calling on the UK Government to: Introduce a Medical Cannabis Patient Card, recognised nationally, which allows...

Broken But Still Beautiful – The Chronic Pain Doll Purple skin, green pigtails, one leg on the floor, a robotic arm and eye cover dangling, little eyes scattered below… a broken doll. She’s not polished, not perfect, but she’s real. I made her to represent how chronic pain feels – like pieces of you fall away when the world isn’t looking. People see the surface and assume you’re fine, but they don’t see the invisible struggles, the parts of you you’ve lost along the way. Disability isn’t always obvious. Sometimes it’s hidden inside joints that ache, nerves that burn, or energy that drains before the day has even started. This doll is me – and she’s many of us. A reminder that even when the world doesn’t see your pain, it’s still there. You’re still valid. You’re still whole in your own way. I also hope amputees can find something in her too. Because losing a piece of yourself – whether visible or invisible – doesn’t erase your worth. It doesn’t strip away your beauty. You’re not less b...

  Today I signed and shared a petition forwarded to me from Sarah: Changing the Narrative, on Facebook. It was a real life acknowledgement of the systemic barriers regarding housing disabled individuals, and how most bungalows are 65+. I signed it, shared it and I sent the following email to my MP.  If you'd like to sign and share it, please use the link below and if you need to, you can use my email as a template for your own. Good luck 🤞🏻 we are going to need it to change this issue. 🙏🏻 ---- Subject: Support for Petition on Accessible Housing for Disabled People Dear Alan Strickland, Anita, I am writing to you as one of your constituents and as a disability advocate to ask for your support regarding an important petition I have signed:  https://petition.parliament.uk/signatures/159851268/signed The petition calls for the Government to require social housing providers to ensure that all disabled people, regardless of age, can access ground-floor or accessible housing...

North Tees Hospital Stockton : response to the vlog and review: Update:  Hospital Parking – Update Following Response 🚗 I recently raised some concerns about disabled access and car parking at the hospital, and I want to thank the team for responding so quickly and taking the time to explain the situation. I really appreciate their help in clarifying things and making adjustments. Here are the key points from their reply: 1️⃣ Double Charges & Blue Badges They confirmed that Blue Badge holders should not be charged for parking, as long as an in-date badge and the vehicle registration are provided. Their ANPR system records entry/exit, meaning there’s no need to pay at the machines. They’ve also said they’re happy to discuss further if anyone has experienced double charges. 2️⃣ Accessibility & Distance to Security Office They acknowledged the West Wing car park layout isn’t ideal and have now introduced new signage with an email contact — so disabled visitors no longer...

 I would just like to thank Great Aycliffe Town Council for tonight’s meeting. It was encouraging to see so many people turn up, and I’m also grateful to the other members of the public who spoke. While it’s natural for people to disagree, I’d personally like to see disagreements handled in a more constructive way by certain councillors. At times, things became a little too heated, and had the meeting been recorded, I’m not sure that the public would have been all that impressed. That said, some councillors did show sensible and balanced contributions, and as a Newtonian, I just want the very best for our town and it's residents. I was also very interested in the discussion around removing councillor positions. I can see the perspectives from both sides, but as one councillor rightly pointed out, we can’t currently compare data to see which decision would truly save money — and for that reason they couldn’t support it. Overall, I am grateful and appreciative of all that the council...

Real resolution matters — not fobbing people off when admins break their own rules. You disable us when you: Make communication unnecessarily difficult. Throw out false allegations of “harassment” when people are simply asking for guidance and reassurance. Fail to understand that accessibility isn’t just about buildings — it’s about community, communication, and inclusion too. 😔 #ReassuranceMatters What’s the point of being in a group if members can’t feel safe from unfair suspension? In my case, it wasn’t even my mistake — it was admins breaking their own rules. This has dragged on far too long. I even offered to help with admin duties, yet somehow I’m treated as the problem. Figures. Community support is important. If you’re going to admin, at least take your role seriously: Treat people kindly. When someone needs reassurance, give it. Follow your own rules. Without reassurance, people can’t feel comfortable engaging in the group. Instead, they feel mistreated — and I can’t even use...

Disability Awareness Speech - Kawaii Doll Decora at The Rotary of Great Aycliffe : In this Disability Awareness Speech, Sarah Wingfield blends personal story, humour, and advocacy to challenge common misconceptions about disability. She shares her lived experience of navigating chronic pain , barriers in daily life , and society’s attitudes toward disability . The speech introduces the social model of disability , highlighting how barriers—rather than impairments—create exclusion. It addresses accessibility, representation in media, and employment discrimination, while also calling out harmful policies that silence disabled voices . Through honest storytelling, Sarah encourages the audience to think differently, act with empathy, and commit to building a more inclusive society where disabled people are seen, heard, and valued. https://KawaiiDollDecora.uk #disabilityinclusion #strongertogether #disability #disabilityawareness #disabilitysupport 

Accessibility Review: North Tees Hospital , Stockton Parking & Blue Badge Issues: Current signage asks disabled customers to break the law by leaving the clock portion of their Blue Badge in the car and bringing the badge to the security office . This is unnecessary and illegal. A picture of the badge is sufficient, preventing disabled visitors from unnecessary travel and legal risk. Conflicting signage exists:  Most signs request the full badge, while one asks for only the clock portion, which could confuse visitors. Clear, consistent instructions are needed. Charging twice for parking when a badge is forgotten, despite the ParkingEye app showing a free extension, is unfair and adds unnecessary stress to disabled visitors. Distance & Accessibility Concerns: The walk to the security office is too long for many disabled visitors, including wheelchair or mobility scooter users. Asking visitors to make two trips (one to fill in forms and another to return the badge) is not...

Alt text: An image of a blue sky with white and grey clouds, featuring a large cloud at the bottom. A grey transparent text box with two curved corners displays the title: “Sunlight, Sand, and the Spaces Between Pain” in white font. The alias “Kawaii Doll Decora” appears in white along the left side and inside a white heart on the right side. Sunlight, Sand, and the Spaces Between Pain : I’m grateful for still being able to make a positive difference, to uplift others, to be as weird and creative as I desire, and for the little things most take for granted. The swaying of tree branches and leaves in the wind . The bird song most people never hear. The sun or the moon and the way their light hits the clouds, shifting the sky into endless colours. I can be outside now, instead of stuck in a room. I can feel the wind on my face—even when it hurts my body. I can feel sand and grass between my toes, and every second reminds me just how precious these little moments are. I had missed them w...

The Despair of Bad Pain Days Some days it feels like I’m being tossed around like a yo-yo. One moment I’m crushed by frustration, the ache of pain, and the creeping sense of uselessness. The next, I’m trying to claw my way back up with affirmations, telling myself to be kind, to be gentle, to hold myself the way I would hold anyone else who was suffering. It’s a constant back-and-forth, exhausting in its own right. The truth is: my energy is low. And when your energy is so scarce, everything feels magnified. Every task on the list grows heavier, looming over you as if it’s urgent, as if not ticking it off makes you a failure. But when I take a step back, I see the truth more clearly. Because I know where I’ve come from. I was once bedbound. Housebound. I spent over a decade within the same four walls, surviving days blurred with pain, surviving nights that felt endless. And even then, even when I was flat on my back in a hospital bed, I still tried to help others, to be there, to give ...

What Caused My Latest Seize Up Sometimes it’s the smallest things that tip my body into chaos. This time, it was a bath. I was at my partner’s home and he hadn’t put the water heater on. I thought, it’s fine – I’ll make do. I should just be grateful to have water at all. So I ran a cold bath. The moment I got in, I knew I’d made the wrong choice. My muscles, tendons, ligaments, and joints all seized in protest. Pain shot through me. My whole body locked up in a way that felt both brutal and familiar. Lesson learned, the hard way. The aftermath was just as frustrating. I had to cancel and reschedule my driving lesson, and instead of moving forward with plans, I was left flared up, seized, and forced into extra rest. With everything else life has been throwing at my partner and me lately, it was too much for my body to tolerate – and it let me know. I’m still hoping I’ll make it to the council meeting tonight, but just in case, I’ve arranged for someone I know to collect the papers for m...

 5/5 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Curlew Cafe at High Farm Holiday Park   I recently had the pleasure of attending an evening at the Curlew Café with the Auckland Shanty Singers and the Friends of the Stockton & Darlington Railway, and the experience exceeded expectations on every level. The Curlew Café itself is a welcoming and characterful venue. The interior strikes a balance between comfort and charm, making it an ideal setting for both casual dining and special events. The staff deserve particular recognition: they were attentive, respectful, and genuinely polite, ensuring that every guest felt well looked after without being intrusive. Their professionalism enhanced the overall atmosphere and made the evening flow seamlessly. The food was superb — fresh, flavourful, and well-presented. Each dish was crafted with care, offering a standard of dining that rivals many larger establishments. The drinks menu was equally impressive, with a range of options to suit different tastes. The cocktail...