Inner child:

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I've been spending more time alone and I'm loving it, remembering who I am, not being bothered, not dragged down by negatives. 

Taking social media breaks because people are getting worse not better and taking charge of my own mental health.


I had a super sleep recharge yesterday and last night and woke today feeling a bit better. Still drained due to cold weather but I'm happy I'm taking more time to rest and look after myself.

My dog and I have been watching movies and chilling indoors. He makes me laugh and cheers me up and I don't need anything else.

Refocusing my energy and time on myself and what others do is their business, if they bring themselves into my lane though I'm walking away. Can't be chewed.

I'm meeting a wonderful friend for a coffee today and I want to keep talking positives so those that have let me down, let themselves down, not done what they promised or have caused harm won't be given the energy. They don't deserve it.

I'm going to be talking about Bonesfest next weekend and my movie work which I'm slowly building up. 

Going to be studying my theory test non-stop and when I have time I'll work on my books and house chores.

My theory test is in two weeks so that's my main focus at the moment. I'm keeping up doing the driving lessons and working hard towards my goals. I can't afford negativity or distractions and I've had a lot of unfairness to deal with and I'm not doing it anymore.

I've found that you do good for others, and it only brings more drama so yea I don't care anymore if people want to mislabel me selfish because I am being selfish right now. I'm looking after me now. They gave me the push to put myself first so I guess I can thank my haters and bullies for that.

When you're in the public eye you attract a lot of idiots and hate and it's just life but when it's people who are related to someone you've been helping it just sucks and I called the police and sorted it.

Harassment won't be tolerated.

I hate having to call the police but it's the only choice I have when grown adults won't act reasonable, and I'll do whatever it takes to be left alone these days.

I'm going to Bonesfest alone now but that's ok, because I'm looking forward to it and I never needed anyone, just wanted people around, so I'll be fine.

Meeting my friends there and then heading onto the venue and one of my friends is trying to talk me into performing either there next year or at a UK Juggalo event, so I guess I need to work on some tracks!

Creating makes me happy. My inner child will never die.

Have the best Sunday.

Sarah x

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