Take a deep breath:

Take a deep breath and refocus.

Not going to lie it is so hard trying to navigate life with recent trauma, anxiety, depression, autism and disabilities, and I was just starting to feel like there was a place for me in the world but I'm done kidding myself.

I'm not understood.

I'm not supported like I deserve and I have to accept that and find a way to stop hyper-fixating on closure, apologies and injustice and I need to reprogramme my mind to care less about such things.

This world isn't how it claims to be and it's about time I accepted that.

Otherwise it's going to break my heart over and over again and that's going to take its toll on me.

I'm blessed with many things and my life is no longer fully isolated, stuck in a bed, and I need to keep reminding myself of that and never lose sight of that because that's how society wants you; focusing and prioritising the wrong things over the things that have actual genuine value.

Real value is being able to be a safe space for another, provide solutions over judgement, resolution over hate.

There's already many ways society chooses to segregate.

I process everything differently too, with much more feeling than others. I've constantly been told the things that are wrong with me, I later found out to be autistic traits.

I don't understand social etiquette, I don't always word things right, but is there a right? When everyone reads your words and assume you used them how they would use them? With malice or passive aggression over literally making a point?

I'm still learning so forgive me for my flaws but atleast I'm fixing me. Atleast I have integrity and accountability and may the universe continue to guide me.

Sarah. ❤️🌹