Breakthrough support:

My adult social worker Olivia has worked miracles for me over the last few days and she rang today bless her heart and gave me information to self refer to talking changes.

Thanks to her Breakthrough services have been put in place and I can start and feel like I can actually make a good life for myself now.

I've been a stressed, anxious, feeling unsafe, flustered, autistic meltdown ball of fun lol, and I want to change that. 

I want clarity and calm. I need it.

I'm finally starting to feel like I'm getting the help I need and my hopes are up again, let's hope this time nothing shatters them.

A lovely lady called Lisa came to meet me and she saw the issues I have with decluttering and organising and she will be working with me over the the next year so I can start and enjoy being in my home as opposed to hating that I can't do things or I can't do things fast enough.

Isolation won't be as bad once my craft room is organised and I can craft again and take my mind off how the world is and how people are.

I can also get lost in my books again and writing and art again which will be much better and I'll feel like an actual functional adult for once.

Disability robs you of so much, makes every little task for others a huge obstacle for us and people don't often understand or realise that.

I'm not liking people much these days, I know that's an awful thing to say but a lot of people I come across just don't care anymore and there's so much unnecessary drama and escalation and negativity, I don't know how most people do it. Be around all of that so much.

It's awful.

It breaks my heart and I feel like I'm alone with how much it gets to me. It can feel like people are just out to get each other and I just don't see the point. Doesn't seem logical or reasonable to someone like me to waste so much energy being awful or taking sides or ganging up or bullying or trolling or name calling, it happens to everyone all of the time and how are they themselves not sick of it?

Why not change it?

Just BE better?

Something I'll never understand but hey, guess that's one of the reasons people do the same to me. Cause I'll never support or promote negativity, and I don't condone ANY mistreatment. Never will.

I hope those that have caused me harm find what they're looking for in life and realise what they've caused or atleast learn from it.

The world doesn't have to be this way, but I'm stuck in it too.

Atleast I finally have plans in place and some support and goals to focus on, I really hope I can look back on all this next year and see how I've improved and rebuilt.

It's not easy, sweat, tears, swears and a lot of pain, actually agony, and sacrifices, but atleast I'm working on me and working towards good things and still actioning positive change and helping others. 

I still support others and I still support my town albeit in my own little lane now, and no one's lies can change that.

Sometimes life takes you away from things that aren't meant for you, to bring you towards the things that are, so let's follow the universe in the direction they're taking me and let's see what happens.

Ooh, exciting!

Sarah ❤️ xx

To new chapters! 🤞🏻✨

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