PGP / SPD My story:

I hope everyone has had a wonderful Christmas holiday and you're all relaxing and taking the time to reminisce on the good parts of this last year!  I spent it with my new partner, parents and my brother and his wife. My son was asleep as he had been enjoying his PS5 gift from momma early. Ahaha. I checked on him, tucked him in and gave him a kiss on his forehead. He's grown so much since he was a baby. Always has the same baby smell though, momma's know. My mam made a beautiful dinner as always, it's always the best part of Christmas and growing up it's always been the moment I've looked forward to. I thoroughly enjoyed the food today and it was the first time I had my dinner at my parents after years of being stuck in the house and achy. It was nice. I'm so grateful today and still blown away with how much my life has changed for the better.  My best friend got me beautiful flowers yesterday and when I got back from my parents today, my friend came over an...

  The essence of Christmas: When the world is white Snowflakes sparkle as they fall I feel butterflies inside As I decorate my Hall My eyes light up My friends show they care As the Christmas cards pile up I know we are almost there Christmas wishes Are kind thoughts in my head I think of others And the kind things they have said It's not about the presents It's the thought that counts As I know I am loved As the presents they mount Christmas Day arrives Presents under the tree I feel so excited  So much love wrapped with bows for me All mine are wrapped So Beautifully Sent to all those I love To be opened tenderly I hope all my friends Know how much I care And Christmas time is best To show I'll always be there All gifts opened Wrappers crinkled and ripped We have a dinner Fit for a king, wine sipped Apple sauce,  Next to Turkey and pork Everyone together Each with knife and fork Next comes the pudding Or the christmas cake We have mince pies too Memories to make When it...

I'm absolutely blown away. So many good things are happening and have happened and quite frankly I'm not used to it. It has me so emotional and grateful and I can't take it! ❤️  When life's been so difficult and it suddenly starts changing and things start becoming wonderful, how does one adapt and embrace that? I don't want it to end. 🥹 I feel it with every fibre of my being and it's new and scary but absolutely wonderful.  I don't know what I've possibly done to deserve all these wonderful experiences and life changes but it just goes to show that if you work hard at putting out positivity and good vibes in the world, karma will overwhelm you with amazing surprises! I hope my life continues like this because I love being excited and happy. I love being amazed and feeling blessed and I've come so far over the last few years since I was bedbound/housebound. I've got a beautiful family, a wonderful friend network now and I'm loving and apprec...

 The universe and guidance: I was thinking about all things recently and I genuinely do believe that things happen for a reason. Too much has happened in coincidence with other things and I genuinely believe the universe is guiding me in all I do. ❤️ If more of us self-analyse, fix us when we are the issue, put out positivity and support and genuinely mean it, as well as listen to our spirit guides, ancestors, meditate and manifest, I genuinely believe we could see a different world around us. We're more interconnected than people know and understand and there's so much more to this life than most people can comprehend. I'm very spiritual and always have been and this year my life has changed in so many different ways, I genuinely believe in karma and wholeheartedly leave everything up to karma and the universe. I know I'm in good hands and I understand bad things happen for balance, Yin and Yang, so good things can be manifested and/or can happen.  Sacrifice is necessa...

 #narcissisticabuseawareness  Written by Sarah Wingfield Author 🌹 Stay safe this Christmas, keep it NO contact. Narcissist behavioural traits: They don't accept the harm they cause to others. They antagonise and bait and deliberately sometimes state false things to get a response as people try and clarify and fix things and then they use the response to manipulate and distort it to turn people against the person being genuine. They can't be wrong. They blame others for their struggles. They are always the victim and they never admit their actions caused harm. No accountability. In their head they're innocent. They justify their abuse and make excuses up for it when no abuse is justifiable. They gaslight and manipulate the narrative and twist the truth. They smear campaign but act like they're the ones being smear campaigned. They lack empathy and compassion but use others empathy and compassion against them to manipulate them and make others feel bad and guilty or feel...

Domestic Violence has NO place in any relationship, which is why I action positive change and always have. As a survivor myself I would never want anyone else to experience, endure or feel what I felt. Thanks to NaariSamatā whose a safe space for women and children I was able to work to create this important podcast. If any of this sounds familiar to you, please listen to the later part of the podcast on how to leave safely! Tw abuse / DV ⚠️ https://open.spotify.com/episode/2DkORqdEysdWnTg30kLLmi?si=gGK46P-TSdaAmFmk5WM_vQ The podcast is live! ❤️❤️❤️ #domesticabuseawareness #domesticviolenceawareness #abusecycles

Taking care of yourself is also owning how you impact others, it's learning how to be better and focusing on evolving. Treat yourself with respect but fix you when you're also the issue. Blaming another is easy, downplaying your own part is easy, taking a long hard look in the mirror as you are and fixing where you went wrong takes guts and bravery. You have to be ready for reality. #yougotthis #youreworthit #believeinyourself

  Staying True to Myself and Moving Forward : (I won't revisit wounds I'm making progress in healing from. ❤️‍🩹) I believe in taking responsibility for my actions and focusing on what I can control. When I make a mistake, I reflect, learn, and do my best to make amends. I strive to align my actions with my values, which include standing against abuse and bullying in all forms. Recently, a situation has arisen that has been deeply challenging for me. I feel the need to address it in a way that is honest but respectful, while also setting boundaries for my own well-being. Clarifying the Facts: I have never and would never endanger anyone. My actions have always been rooted in safeguarding and supporting others, even when it comes at a cost to myself. I believe abuse and harm cannot be justified under any circumstances. Accountability matters, and I hold myself to that standard, just as I believe others should. I am not responsible for the actions or choices of others. I can only...

Went to Redcar with Peter, we took Bud for a lovely walk, was bloody freezing but was so nice to eat at a little cafe and have the Budster out for an adventure.  Went back to Peter's and hung out for a bit watching Ultraman then Peter and I went and got my friend Tracey and we been chilling listening to music at mine.  Saw my son for a bit as he popped over. Been a nice day today! 🩷💀🩷💀🩷 Can't wait for more trips and adventures! Sarah xoxo

Someone on Facebook (likely on my town) is reporting any blog posts I make about my real life experiences and marking them as spam. This blog post that was removed didn't actually mention anyone so I get you're supporting people who prefer harm over apologies but you can't keep sabotaging and silencing people to hide misdeeds! I'll keep reposting as they're NOT spam and I'll keep reporting the false reporting to Facebook and you can't sabotage my blog anyways so just block me and stop being a puppet! Wonder if you're responsible for the messenger sabotage malarkey. Everyone else has stopped trolling as I blocked them and moved on, maybe do the same! Thank you! Sarah Wingfield xx *Sarah Wingfield Author*

I've been working exceptionally hard as of late on my goals and aspirations as well as my charity work and I'm excited to announce a new opportunity heading my way! I've struggled to cope with some negative experiences and I'm trying my very best to put all of that behind me despite the hurt but I will always practice gratitude and appreciation and work hard towards how I want my life to be! I'm still rebuilding and it will take time. I'll drop more information nearer to the time and I am focusing on driving lessons and hoping to pass my practical test in May so I can benefit from independence and freedom and the ability to drive to wherever I need to be for future movie opportunities, however I am excited to announce a small segment in a movie has come my way! I'll book a hotel and sort transport the night before so I can be on set for when they need me and I'd be playing a background character, a manager! As my movie database portfolio slowly grows I w...

 I commented in response to a Tiktok enquiry... Now watch all three get me arrested for stating that fact. Even though it's not illegal to state facts or to have originally wanted an apology... Let's see if I get harmed or sabotaged further for stating the facts even though the community protection order doesn't state I can't state this and is full of false allegations. Evil does what evil does. Sarah x #reallife #disabledadvocacy #silenced #abused

All ready to see my grandma ❤️  She may not remember me as she has dementia but I just want to see her and visit her as it's been over twelve years since I've seen her.  Popping over to hers with my mam today so I'm looking forward to it. Sarah xx Accessory:  Harley Quinn hair clip from #SHEIN Update: My grandma wasn't able to see me today but we dropped her gifts off with my auntie and I just hope that she is okay. At least we visited and tried to see her and that's all that matters. I'm saddened that I never got to see her or give her a hug but it was still nice to see my auntie and other relatives and have a wonderful catch up. Sending them all my love and hope they all have a wonderful Christmas. Sarah x

A mistake has been made so I apologise wholeheartedly to everyone reaching out to me for support tonight. I don't know why this has happened and I'm so sorry I am now unable to help you in times of crisis. Sometimes facebook makes mistakes and it gets things wrong. When it impacts the mental well-being of others or prevents us that offer support to others from being supportive, it is NOT okay. I do not condone bullying or harassment or abuse of any kind and most certainly have NOT sent anything to anyone that would cause Facebook to do this. Again, my apologies and please call the crisis team (111 option 2) if you're really struggling because I too am saddened that i can't help right now. All my love Sarah xx What I was talking about when hit with the bogus messenger ban so I don't think it's a coincidence: #foodforthought Same thing happened for no reason, same amount of days, same time last year too: #targeted

I rehomed my baby axolotl today, with my disabilities and having taken on my dog Bud, it was getting too much and then last night the tank leaked loads, and I realised it has been leaking for quite some time. Ponyo, my beautiful dark freckled water baby, has a new home with a loving owner now and it's strange and I'm going to miss the little guy but I'll visit him often. He's nearby, about half an hour by car so it's not all bad. It was necessary and I'm mixed about it as I will be because I get attached but at the same time I have to be realistic. I had to call an ambulance for a friend this morning and they're okay so that's good news, I cant go into more detail than that as it's not my place but they have a follow up tomorrow and I'm hoping all is well. Bud is as daft as ever and becoming a very clingy baby indeed, I'm still working on his training and slow progress is being made so I can't be disheartened. I will be visiting my grandm...

"All I can do at this point is see what happens if I don't quit." My ex was recently exposed on one of the exposed cheaters and abusers page and I've got triggered today. I was called this morning about the police interview and that it will be sometime in January now and I've legitimately just stopped crying and wiped my tears away and reminded myself I have goals and I need to stay focused. I'm working with Harbour and I just feel so alone since people targeted me and sabotaged me being able to make friends and go to support groups in my small town and I just have to try and deal with everything alone. It's scary when it's all out in the open too, people victim blame and shame too much and I'm so nervous of people doing that to me after everything I've had to face this year and last year, I've come a long way and I now avoid people who fake support others and take sides and it's a hard pill to swallow that you have to be alone because ...

~Still trying to heal and deal so forgive me for being real.~ S.O.S (song / poem) This is a signal flare I'm in distress Tongue held under duress Threatened of an arrest S.O.S I wanted a place to belong Bring people together and to move on Heal from the past and make new friends But that dream shattered and came to an end I struggle to swallow injustice  Was never able to, even as a child  I choke on the thought of it And can't stand the hypocrisy, it's wild How people can win awards When they cause such harm and damage How people can ostracise, not remain impartial, it's savage You got the police to threaten me Because I dared to ask for an apology  You're all ganging up on me Because you're not capable of a simple 'sorry' This is MY story You don't get to bury me You don't get to spread lies You may win awards And your organisations may thrive But you're a facade, you're evil in disguise No feminist would approve of abuse It's all a...

Rant warning: None of my posts EVER incite violence or hate campaigns. EVER. I'll never be as bad as those that harmed me. Still have days where I feel like a failure. Still have days where I don't understand this world.  (abusers get away with serious offences and crimes and then there's the other side of the coin where victims are targeted and silenced by police on behalf of corrupt organisations that want to silence the victim about the mistreatment so they can win awards, murderers don't get long in prison and DV victims have to share custody of their kids with their rapists and abusers. The world no longer makes sense to me.) Still have days where I feel like a burden. Still have days where I no longer want to be here. ..but I am here. And I don't care if the system protects abuse, abuse is wrong and if I end up with a criminal record because I was bullied by organisations and forced to stop sharing how they mistreated me under the fake guise of I'm the one...

I am so pleased to have 8 films under my belt now and I'm excited to announce I'll be expanding with my acting career too. You should be seeing glimpses of me soon in places like Amazon Prime, Tubi and Apple TV and this is just the beginning! Thank you for your support and I am pleased to share even more exciting news! My IMDb link: IMDb.me/SarahWingfield 🎥❤️