Happy Halloween 🎃

I go to collect my car today and I'm really excited.

I got news about the movie I'm going to be in too and I can't wait to start filming for that now too.

I've had some downs amongst the ups which is unfortunately normal for my little rollercoaster life, but I'm rolling with the punches and will pick myself back up and focus on what I am responsible for and what I can change.

I can't change others, only myself.

Everything is a lesson in life and I have been very upset this morning with a couple of downs that happened and on top of that my ex sent something here which I opened by accident as I'm waiting for a smartwatch I bought off Vinted to arrive before Nov 1st, ugh.

I've sealed it back up and I'm sending it back to the sender 'Not at this address'.

My ex committed serious crimes whilst we were together and I have police involvement so I don't want any contact with him ever again, I'm processing the damage and healing from the trauma and won't be dragged back into communication with him or anything else.

He's moved on like he had planned and had been searching for a replacement for me for months as he was with me and cheating, so he needs to stay away from me and he can sort the issue with the parcel with the place he bought it from. They will get it back.

I won't let this become an excuse for him to try and gain any level of access into my life, I refuse to. I'm no longer a doormat and no longer a people pleaser. I matter too and if people can't make room for me they'll see less of me.

My boundaries are upped because I have gone through too much due to my kind nature and I will continue to put myself first and look after myself as well as keeping up the hard work I do to help others and action positive change.

After the parcel issue I got into an argument with a friend over a misunderstanding and feel so deflated and hope she can understand where I'm coming from 🙏🏻 so I took some time out and listened to Joy + Soul, I call my power back and Clarity.

My dogs anti-barking device has arrived and I'm charging it right now but it won't be ready yet as I need to leave in an hour and it needs atleast five hours to charge.

I wish I had less of a rollercoaster of a life because it's draining and emotional at times, but I can't deny that it's not interesting lol, gotta look at it with positivity and take it for how it is.

Always picking myself back on and staying focused.

I'm on my own path and I keep myself right.

I fix me when I'm the issue and avoid people who refuse to do the same.

All I can do.

Keep a look out for Beatrice Elite/influencer in Diamond Dogs - Feature film because I'm excited to play her!

Thanks as always for reading, 

Keep riding the waves of life my friends, we got this.

Sarah xo