How do you...?
How do you...?
How do you explain when you're feeling alone
How do you ask for help?
How do you use words that will land correctly?
Because my navigation systems failing.
...and crash!
How do you uphold boundaries,
Whilst still bending over backwards for those you love,
How do you end up crying alone,
When you try so hard to be loved?
How do you end up doing the things you needed help to do, how do you word things in a deaf world when people claim you're the one talking too much?
I silence my needs and build up my walls,
And barricade myself in.
I know I can still get things done, whether or not others are helping.
I isolate and try to make sense of the world and the forever changing social etiquette, I continue through exhaustion and keep up my responsibilities, I fight for everything I manage to get.
My dog needs walking, I rely on others, they bail every time, my dog brings me a muzzle at half past nine and I cannot say no to him.
It's dark outside and my fur baby is my responsibility, so I step up to the plate, despite it being late and ask if they wanna accompany me.
They don't.
So I walk alone, late at night, with my muzzled dog beside me, my pelvic bones moving around, creaking and absolutely agony.
Every step feels like a stab in the abdomen, and yet I fight through it, I have responsibilities and as a mother I've already gone through it. I've seen the worst of humankind and the worst the world has to offer, so forgive me for not getting on my knees, or begging please, for the world to start to 'offer'.
How do you explain when you're feeling alone
How do you ask for help?
How do you use words that will land correctly?
Because my navigation systems failing.
...and crash!
How do you uphold boundaries,
Whilst still bending over backwards for those you love,
How do you end up crying alone,
When you try so hard to be loved?
How do you end up doing the things you needed help to do, how do you word things in a deaf world when people claim you're the one talking too much?
My navigation system is failing.
Get ready for turbulent sky sailing!
- S.W
Kawaii Doll Decora 🩷 ✨
www.magnoliaphotography.co.uk
00:53hrs Sunday 5th May 2024.
