Finding My Voice:

- February 02, 2025

A Journey of Strength and Self-Belief.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been fighting a battle no one else can see. Living with chronic pain and invisible disabilities has meant constantly explaining, justifying, and pushing through—while the world often fails to understand. It’s exhausting, but I refuse to let it define me.

Singing and rapping has always been my escape. When I sing and rap, I feel free, as if, for a moment, the weight of my struggles lifts, and I can just be. But for a long time, self-doubt whispered in my ear, telling me I wasn’t good enough, that my voice didn’t matter, that my pain made me weak. Years of being overlooked, dismissed, and told to “just push through” had taken a toll on my confidence.

Now, I’m on a journey—not just to improve my singing, but to rebuild me.

Learning to Believe in Myself.

I used to think confidence was something you either had or didn’t have. But I’m learning it’s like a muscle—it grows the more you use it. Every note I sing, every lyric I write, every time I push past my fears and share my music with others, I take back a piece of myself.

It’s not easy. Some days, the pain is overwhelming. Some days, I question if I’ll ever be strong enough to truly believe in myself. But I remind myself that healing—both physical and emotional—is a journey, not a destination. I've been brave enough to put myself out there, flaws and all in the hope I'll find my like-minded kin, people who can relate to my music and enjoy it, as weird and quirky and raw as it is.

Finding Strength in Collaboration.

One of the most beautiful things I’ve discovered is the power of collaboration. Working with other artists, sharing experiences, and lifting each other up has reminded me that I’m not alone. There’s something powerful about creating alongside people who understand struggle, who know what it’s like to fight through pain and still chase their dreams. Today I recorded a track with a fellow artist about mental health and I'm excited to hear back from them on my rap segment. It was easy to talk about because I too, have struggled, and putting it into words was a pleasure today.

Music has given me a purpose beyond my disabilities. It allows me to express the things I can’t always put into words—the frustration, the hope, the strength it takes to keep going, I know I'm not for everyone but I wouldn't want to be, I survive on the outskirts of society, living life on the edge. It's always been this way for me and I want others who are the same to find their way to me, be inspired by me and to see their worth.

Inspiring Others Through My Journey.

I know I’m not the only one who feels unseen. There are so many of us out there—people fighting battles that others can’t see, people struggling to believe they are worthy, strong, and capable. We face so much adversity and hate from people who could never understand us or last a second in our shoes and who fail to fix themselves. It's exhausting some days but I won't give up and I won't quit, I'll find my sound and my music journey is finally starting after fifteen hard years of working on songs behind the scenes.

If I can be a voice for even one person who feels like they don’t matter, then every struggle, every moment of doubt, every difficult day will have been worth it. That's why advocacy is so important to me and I don't need a thank you or validation, my fight for publishing was always solely about awareness so those in need could find me even though I was rejected by those on my home town and a support group turned their back on me, cruelly. I still continue forward in the hopes that people will still discover me and I can then be a voice for them too. Together actioning positive change.

So, to anyone reading this who feels like they’re not enough: You are. Your struggles don’t define you. Your pain doesn’t make you weak. You have a voice, a purpose, a light that deserves to shine.

And I promise you—I’m going to keep singing, rapping, fighting, and believing, not just for myself, but for all of us. Those that have been rejected, targeted and our voices dimmed. We are shouting now and we will be heard.

Sarah Wingfield

K•Doll

KDoll is a female music artist from the UK.

Listen to K•Doll, on ALL streaming platforms:

https://RecordU.lnk.to/anlKVX

SoundCloud:

https://on.soundcloud.com/Fz25tkaPAy6KqohWA

Apple music:

https://music.apple.com/us/artist/k-doll/1788495399

Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6scx6w4IeXQXG4kKsYCbND?si=AmO3fa2bSU2OQQpwWxLRNw

Amazon music: