Just do it away from me...

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 None of it's ok and it won't be and I just have to accept that... nothing I can do so I'll keep taking the hits until I can't anymore... ❤️‍🩹 But until then I'll do my best to struggle on... Abuse is never justified nor ever okay and I wish I didn't get reactive because it is just used to protect abusive people and blame me for my reaction and their abuse...


This isn't just about today, it's about a lot of things and as an autistic I hate conflict and abuse and want to avoid it because it gets me reactive and emotional and a lot of emotional hits were taken today and I simply feel like I've suffered enough...


...I don't expect people to understand or care or even want to sort things cause no matter how I approach things I'm still hated and I still want to avoid and stay away from conflict and abuse.


I'm alone.


I have no one.


I'll take the hits and pick myself up cause as a mother I have no other choice...


Hate me, blame me, do what you need to just do it away from me xx

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