When I Shut Down, I’m Not Punishing You:
When I Shut Down, I’m Not Punishing You
A neurodivergent explanation of overwhelm, boundaries, and repair
There’s a persistent misunderstanding about neurodivergent people — particularly autistic and AuDHD people — that when we shut down, go quiet, or step away, we’re being difficult. We’re not. When I end a call, stop responding, or need space, it isn’t rejection, manipulation, or the so-called “silent treatment”. It’s my nervous system hitting capacity.
Shutdown isn’t simply feeling upset or stressed; it’s a full-body response. Sound, tone, conflict, emotional intensity, expectations, time pressure — they all stack. And once that stack tips over, my brain can no longer process safely. At that point, continuing the conversation doesn’t lead to understanding; it leads to escalation, shutdown, or harm. So I pause — not because I don’t care, but because I care enough not to push myself past a point that causes damage.
Pressure makes this worse. When someone pushes for reassurance, mutters under their breath, demands immediate resolution, or treats my need for space as punishment, it sends one clear message to my nervous system: you’re not allowed to regulate. That keeps me stuck in survival mode. It’s not that I won’t come back — it’s that I can’t yet.
What actually helps in the moment isn’t grand gestures or perfect wording; it’s safety and trust. Space without punishment or passive aggression, no pressure to explain immediately, and simple reassurance such as, “That’s okay. Take the time you need. We’ll talk later.” That sentence alone can bring my nervous system down a notch. And when it does, I come back.
Once I’ve regulated, that’s where the real communication happens. I want to talk. I want to explain what happened for me, hear how it landed for you, and work towards repair — not defensiveness, blame, or point-scoring. For many neurodivergent people, healthy communication happens after the storm, not in the middle of it. That isn’t avoidance; it’s pacing.
This goes both ways. This isn’t about dodging accountability. I’m responsible for explaining my needs when I’m able, coming back to the conversation rather than disappearing, and acknowledging the other person’s feelings once I’m regulated. Boundaries aren’t about shutting people out; they’re about making connection possible without harm.
Let’s be clear about what shutdown is not. It isn’t the silent treatment. It isn’t emotional manipulation. It isn’t punishment or a lack of care. It’s a protective pause.
The bigger picture matters. Neurodivergent people are often expected to override our nervous systems to make others comfortable — to keep engaging, explaining, and soothing even when we’re overloaded. But regulation isn’t optional. Ignoring it leads to burnout, meltdowns, resentment, and broken trust. Understanding shutdown isn’t about tip-toeing around neurodivergent people; it’s about recognising that different nervous systems require different pacing.
The goal isn’t perfection — it’s safety. We’re not trying to avoid conflict forever or “win” arguments. We’re trying to stay connected without causing harm. Space isn’t abandonment; it’s care. And when that’s truly understood, relationships become calmer, safer, and more honest for everyone involved.
Sarah Wingfield ❤️
Independent Disability Advocate
Neurodivergent. Disabled. Speaking from lived experience.
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