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 🌸 In Concrete I Bloom 🌸  I wrote In Concrete I Bloom as a chronic pain warrior — for every person who keeps growing even when their body feels like it’s working against them. This song is about resilience that nobody sees. About waking up in pain and still choosing to exist. About finding beauty, softness, and hope in places that were never meant to let anything grow. Chronic pain isn’t weakness. It’s strength built quietly, day after day, without applause. If you live with pain, fatigue, illness, or an invisible battle — this song is for you. You are not broken. You are not failing. You are blooming in concrete. 🌈🌱 Thank you to everyone who listens, feels seen, or finds a moment of comfort in this track. We survive. We adapt. We bloom. 🎧 In Concrete I Bloom – K•Doll feat. Mai #InConcreteIBloom #ChronicPainWarrior #InvisibleIllness #DisabledAndProud #PainIsNotWeakness #Resilience #WeBloomAnyway #KDollMusic #DisabilityAwareness K•Doll is a rising music artist blending pur...

I've finalised the My Creepy Café Show with Peter King and Vanessa Gudgeon so keep your eyes peeled! This first podcast session is a 21-minute deep dive into 15 amazing horror movies and why they're each our top five! #podcast #horrormovies #chills #movies #mycreepycafe  Sarah ❤️ You can sneak peak the first episode here - more details to come as to where the podcast will be distributed!

Love 💗 Kawaii Doll Decora 🌸 KawaiiDollDecora.uk Included is your own #wellbeing colouring page 🌸 #art #chibi #love #valentines #kawaii #kawaiidoll #valentinesday #manga #kawaiiaesthetic #kawaiiart #romance #pastel #pastelvibes  Alt text: A pastel kawaii illustration featuring a chibi-style girl with blue skin and big sparkling eyes, lying on her stomach atop a pink melting heart. She has long pale pink hair in twin ponytails with bows, her hands cupping her cheeks, and her feet kicked up behind her in chunky pastel trainers. She wears a yellow top and a pink gradient skirt. The background is soft pink with wings, hearts, polka dots, and candy-like patterns. Large glowing text at the top reads “LOVE,” with “KawaiiDollDecora.uk” underneath. Additional cute elements include a small red heart, a notebook, a star wand, and a pastel unicorn, all in a dreamy, sweet aesthetic.

  Behind the Pink Pages ✨ Creating, juggling, and keeping the magic alive Some days look a little quieter on the outside. A pen. A pink notebook. A pause. But behind the scenes? There’s a lot happening. Right now I’m deep in production mode for Aycliffe Alternative Magazine — pulling articles together, coordinating contributors, problem-solving, editing, designing, and making sure everything still reflects the values it was built on: community, accessibility, honesty, and inclusion. At the same time, I’m also working on a feature film project — which has unexpectedly become another full-time mental load. Managing creative direction, logistics, people, boundaries, and decision-making takes a different kind of energy. It’s exciting, but it’s also intense, especially when you care deeply about doing things properly and ethically. So this moment — pen in hand, scribbling ideas into a very pink Hello Kitty notebook — is less “cute aesthetic” and more survival strategy. Creativity doesn’...

  🎬 Cast Update – Upcoming Film Project 🎬 I’m excited to share a cast update for my upcoming movie project, Scream Team Reunion (working title). This project brings together a fantastic group of talented individuals, and I’m really proud of the team coming together both on and off screen.   It’s been a lot of work behind the scenes, and even more work to be done, but seeing it taking shape is incredibly rewarding. More updates will be shared as we move forward, including production details and future announcements. Thank you to everyone who has shown support, patience, and enthusiasm for this project — it genuinely means a lot. Watch this space 👀🎥 Sarah Wingfield #movies #IMDb #IMDbpro #screamteam #screamteamreunion  Simon Hall  Janice Gill  Sean Moss  Sarah Wingfield Actress / Producer   Alt text: Dark-mode mobile screenshot of an IMDb-style page titled “Scream Team reunion.” The “Cast” section is open, showing “Top Cast” with four profile ca...

 Autistic people are labelled “abusive” far too easily — especially in medical settings. Being in pain, crying, shutting down, or struggling to communicate is not abuse. Autistic distress is not aggression. I’ve had medical records filled with claims that I was “abusive” while I was literally immobilised in hospital — unable to move, in severe pain, and being shouted at. I couldn’t have hurt a fly. Yet I’m the one who left with bruises as a disabled patient. Those labels don’t just disappear. They follow you. They affect how future professionals treat you, whether you’re believed, and whether you get help at all. This is what happens when systems mistake disability and trauma responses for “bad behaviour”. It’s harmful, it’s lazy, and it puts disabled people at risk. Distress is not abuse. Crying is not violence. Autism is not a character flaw. Sarah Wingfield  Independent Disability Advocate  #chronicillnesswarrior #autismawareness #disabilityinclusion #strongertogether ...

The Scream Team Reunion  Video update: I am so proud to announce that Simon Hall has come on board as Director, Producer and Casting Director, and will be playing 'Jack Lawson' in #ScreamTeamReunion. Let's welcome Simon to the project! Sarah Wingfield | Sarah Wingfield Actress / Producer Alt text: Close-up portrait of a middle-aged bald man with a short grey-brown beard and serious expression, photographed against a black background. He is wearing a textured brown fleece or coat. White text in the lower-left corner reads “Simon Hall” on one line and “Scream Team Reunion” beneath it. https://www.imdb.com/title/tt39222547/?ref_=ext_shr Poster Alt Text: Black-and-white promotional poster titled “The Scream Team Reunion” with the subtitle “The Scream Team Is the Dream Team.” The design features three horizontal photographic panels showing blurred, high-contrast figures behind translucent surfaces: at the top, a face pressed upward beneath fabric or plastic; in the middle, a sil...

 When people speak out, they are doing so to seek resolution and solutions. If someone chooses to remain anonymous, that is a protective and safeguarding measure. It is actually slanderous to assume that anonymous complaints are themselves slander, when the clear intent is to raise concerns, resolve issues, and highlight harm that needs addressing. When people ask for modern-day accountability, it is rarely achieved. Anonymity often provides essential protection for those highlighting genuine issues — especially in environments where people become so loyal to organisations or companies that they attack the complainant instead of allowing harm to be acknowledged and rectified. Feedback is necessary for progress. Speaking about a bad experience is never slander — it is a request for accountability. From personal experience, formal complaints processes can expose people to further abuse, targeting, and retaliation, while still failing to resolve the original issue. If someone chooses ...

We need more of these conversations! My answer: I work with charities and organisations and my advocacy and petitions but we need more teamwork. I find a lot of organisations are more about validation than community support - they're competing instead of amplifying the message by working together. I just finished an understanding domestic abuse course and I work in youth services and safeguarding children depts (unpaid) and we still need to fight to stop the unpaid roles disabled people are often left with and the 13% wage gap for those who manage to find paid work. The system is destructive in more ways than one, and until people start supporting genuine advocates and people> abusive ones with facades, we won't action much positive change. However - I'm proud that I action positive change and challenge what needs to be challenged, even if it's only small changes I manage to implement. I would also suggest the legalisation of pepper spray - having done my due diligen...

  100% accuracy – Japanese. 🙌🏻 Sarah Wingfield ❤️ #Duolingo #Japanese #StillGoing #Studies Kawaii Doll Decora  Alt text: Bright yellow Duolingo progress screen dated February 1. Text reads “I’m acing Japanese lessons with 100% accuracy!” A smiling green Duolingo owl appears on the right. Below, a section titled “Words I learned” shows white rounded tiles with Japanese katakana words: ネコ, ワニ, コ, ネン, フネ, イケ, フ, サケ, フユ, and ケ. The Duolingo logo appears at the bottom and KawaiiDollDecora.uk.  Words learned: neko (ネコ) – cat 🐱 wani (ワニ) – crocodile 🐊 ko (コ) – katakana “ko” (character sound) nen (ネン) – year (used as a sound element/counter) fune (フネ) – boat / ship 🚢 ike (イケ) – pond 🏞️ fu (フ) – katakana “fu” sake (サケ) – salmon 🐟 (also means alcohol when written 酒 — context matters) fuyu (フユ) – winter ❄️ ke (ケ) – katakana “ke” Still going. Still learning. Still smashing it. 💅🏻✨

Abusive relationship advice (from lived experience): Trauma bonding can feel like an addiction — because in many ways, it functions like one. The hot-and-cold cycles of affection and withdrawal create intense emotional highs and lows that condition your nervous system. Over time, that pattern starts to feel familiar, and humans are naturally drawn to what feels familiar, even when it’s harmful. This is what makes the bond so strong. It isn’t love — it’s emotional conditioning. The manipulation of emotions keeps you chasing relief, reassurance, and connection, while slowly eroding your sense of safety and self. Understanding this isn’t about blame. It’s about clarity — and clarity is how the spell starts to break. But the moment you break it, the chains fall away — and you finally see the truth: the version of them you were clinging to was a fantasy, not reality. You are worthy of real love, safety, and consistency. You cannot find someone who will truly cherish or worship you while you...

Watching Kindness Disappear: People have been acting a bit wild lately. There’s a noticeable increase in hostile group behaviour, and while it often gets personalised, the truth is that most of the time it isn’t about the individual being targeted at all. We’re living in a time where people are tired, overwhelmed, and stretched thin. Life is hard. Systems are failing. Support is inconsistent. Many people are operating in survival mode. And when that happens, patience and empathy are often the first things to disappear. Sometimes it’s something as small as forgetting to say “please.” Sometimes it’s a message written bluntly because someone is exhausted, neurodivergent, anxious, or simply having a bad day. Instead of curiosity or compassion, what follows is a pile-on. A jump. A snap judgment. A sudden assumption of intent that was never there to begin with. What I see, again and again, is people waiting for a mistake. Waiting for a slip, a poorly worded sentence, a moment of vulnerabilit...

We’ve all been there — trying to create positive change, make things better, or simply stay in our own lane. And yet somehow, we find ourselves forced into defending ourselves or de-escalating situations we never caused. It’s important to remember this: we do not deserve to be targets of hate campaigns, nor anyone’s verbal punching bag. This image is dedicated to everyone who has found themselves caught in the middle of a battle they never asked for. I see you. I relate. You are not alone. Sarah Wingfield Independent Disability Advocate Kawaii Doll Decora 🌸 KawaiiDollDecora.uk #art #affirmations #shield #battles #disabilityinclusion #strongertogether #disability #disabilityawareness #disabilitysupport #disabilityrights Alt text: A kawaii-style illustration on a white background featuring a soft pink paint-splatter circle. In the centre is a pastel purple shield with two purple swords crossing behind it. Handwritten text on the shield reads, “I will be shielded from all unwanted battl...

No Onion Boyfriends   I created this for those out there with partners who make them cry more often than they make them feel safe, loved, or valued. Onion boyfriends — all layers, all tears, no nourishment. Know your worth. You are worthy of consistency, care, and emotional safety. You are worthy of love that doesn’t hurt, confuse, or drain you. And you are absolutely worthy of more than anyone who repeatedly makes you cry. This is your reminder: love shouldn’t feel like something you have to survive. 💜 Kawaii Doll Decora 🌸 KawaiiDollDecora.uk #onion #affirmations #youmatter #youdeservelove #tears #crying #heartbreak #hardship  Alt text: Colourful kawaii-style illustration of a purple onion with a single all-seeing eye in the centre, shedding stylised tears. The onion sits against a pastel rainbow heart background with halftone dots, sparkles, and star shapes. Neon green and pink text curves around the onion reading “NO MORE ONION BOYFRIENDS.” A small heart logo says “Kawaii...

City Rush 4 Wins October Award for “Most Technically Excellent” at Athens International Monthly Art Film Festival 2025 I’m proud to share that City Rush 4 has received the October Award for “Most Technically Excellent” at the Athens International Monthly Art Film Festival 2025. This award recognises the technical craft behind the film — the precision, planning, and execution that go into making everything work cohesively on screen. It’s a category that highlights the often unseen work: cinematography, editing, sound, pacing, and the many technical decisions that shape the final result. This recognition belongs to the entire team. Film is never the work of one person, and City Rush 4 was a genuine collaborative effort. Every member of the cast and crew contributed skill, time, and professionalism, and this award reflects that collective dedication. Creating film is rarely easy. It requires adaptability, long hours, problem-solving, and commitment, often under pressure. To have that work...

Meta Support Fails to Hold Their Own Misuse of Policies and Procedures to Account I have now reached the point where silence speaks louder than policy. After my account was demonetised by Meta over an image they classified as “sexual in nature,” (a chatGPT image falsely categorised as such) I followed the correct process. I asked for transparency. I asked for the legal basis. I asked for accountability. What I received instead was dismissal. Despite repeated, clearly written requests grounded in UK law, Meta support has refused to provide the most basic information required to justify an income-affecting enforcement decision. This is not a misunderstanding. This is not a disagreement over taste or content. This is a failure of governance. What I asked for (reasonably and lawfully) I formally requested: The specific policy provision relied upon to classify the content as sexual Confirmation of whether the demonetisation decision involved automated decision-making, human review, or a com...

  Mini facts about Autism 🩵 • Autism is neurological, not behavioural. • Autism is a spectrum, not a straight line. • No two autistic people are the same. • Autism is lifelong — not something you grow out of. • Many autistic people have strong sensory differences. • Stimming helps with regulation, not misbehaviour. • Autism is not caused by bad parenting. • Some autistic people are non-speaking and still fully intelligent. • Communication can look different — and still be valid. • Routine often brings comfort and safety. • Meltdowns are overload, not tantrums. • Autism exists in every culture and country. • Girls and minorities are often underdiagnosed. • Autism can include intense focus and deep interests. • Eye contact is not a measure of respect. • Autism can co-occur with ADHD, anxiety, or epilepsy. • Support needs can change day to day. • Autistic joy matters just as much as autistic struggle. • Acceptance improves quality of life more than “fixing”. • Autistic people deserve...

You Can’t Dunning-Kruger Away Disability: Today I experienced something that highlights a much wider problem within discussions about disability and neurodivergence. A man entered an ADHD group, openly flaunting his Psychology PhD, and used that perceived authority to make sweeping, harmful claims about people with ADHD — framing the condition as an excuse to avoid accountability. When those claims were challenged with evidence, lived experience, and respectful factual correction, he didn’t engage. Instead, he mocked, dismissed, and ultimately blocked me. I did not hide behind a nickname. I spoke openly, calmly, and transparently as a woman and as a disabled advocate. That visibility made me a target — not because I was wrong, but because I refused to be silent or defer to ego over evidence. This isn’t about “winning” an argument. It’s about what happens when people prioritise authority, credential flexing, and belittlement over meaningful discussion — and how that behaviour actively h...

The biggest issue for chronic pain warriors is not 'addiction' it's suicide #suicideawareness Credit: KawaiiDollDecora.UK Sarah Wingfield  Independent Disability Advocate    #disabilityinclusion #strongertogether #disability #disabilityawareness #disabilitysupport #disabilityrights Alt text: Pastel kawaii-style illustration showing a sad-looking young woman with long pink hair and glasses, hugging a plush bunny for comfort. She is surrounded by soft clouds, hearts, sparkles, and a rainbow arching across the top. Cute but somber details include small skull characters, a crying cloud holding a noose-shaped rope, and a tipped-over pill bottle with tablets spilling out, symbolising the seriousness of chronic pain and mental health struggles. Text on the image reads: “The biggest issue for chronic pain warriors is not ‘addiction’ it’s suicide” with the hashtag #suicideawareness. The artwork is signed and credited “KawaiiDollDecora.UK” in a pastel, dreamy background.

When Medical Authority Becomes Abuse: While decluttering today, I came across my formal complaint from 2009 — the one where I challenged a gynaecologist (I’ll call him Mr O) who was repeatedly abusive and inappropriate towards me during pregnancy. Reading his responses now, with distance and clarity, the hypocrisy is glaring. His explanations don’t hold up against medical facts. He openly shows disdain toward me for using medical knowledge to challenge his behaviour — particularly around the treatment of Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction, which he clearly misrepresented. He attempts to justify referring me for psychiatric evaluations and social services investigations, presenting this as “normal duty of care for every mother.” He supports this narrative by claiming I was abusive and that everyone around me would say the same. Of course they would — because he had already primed staff by labelling me “psychosomatic.” He dismissed my documented physical needs, including my need for a stairlift...

Clarification Vs. Assumptions: Why do some men seek excuses to be abusive over seeking clarification? Projecting assumptions about you onto you to justify their own ego and negativity. Bro, I ain't your enemy, your own mind however and eagerness to be cruel to women you don't know.. that's your enemy right there. 🎯 This pattern isn’t about misunderstanding — it’s about choice. A few things are usually going on when someone seeks excuses to be abusive instead of asking for clarification: 1. Ego protection over truth Clarification requires humility. Abuse lets them feel right without doing the work. If they pause to ask, they risk discovering they’re wrong — and some egos would rather burn bridges than face that. 2. Projection as a defence mechanism They offload their own anger, shame, entitlement, or insecurity onto you. It’s easier to say “you’re the problem” than to sit with “why am I so reactive?” 3. Control feels safer than curiosity Curiosity opens dialogue. Abuse shut...

I don’t need closure from people who refuse accountability. I used to feel like I did and it opened up opportunities for people who pretend to be kind to be even more abusive.  I no longer allow them to harm me under the guise of 'kindness'. They know exactly who and how they are and kind isn't one of the descriptors. 🔥🔥🔥 Kawaii Doll Decora 🌸 KawaiiDollDecora.uk Alt text: Pastel kawaii-style quote image with a soft pink, lavender, and peach gradient background filled with hearts, sparkles, clouds, and a rainbow. Cute characters include a bunny, heart-shaped lock and key, a teddy bear with a plaster, and an angel girl symbolising healing and protection. Centred text states that closure is not needed from people who refuse accountability and rejects abuse disguised as kindness, ending with flame emojis to emphasise strength and boundaries. The credit “KawaiiDollDecora.uk” appears at the bottom.

Completing the Work That Found Me: I’m proud to share that I’ve just finished and submitted my final unit for my Level 2 qualification in Understanding Domestic Abuse. This course was not easy. It was emotionally demanding, particularly because of my own lived experiences. But it was also necessary. Learning in this area matters deeply to me — not just academically, but ethically — because education is one of the most powerful tools we have to prevent harm, support survivors, and challenge systems that fail people. As the Director of a newly formed CIC, I intend to use this knowledge practically and responsibly. Through workshops, community sessions, and collaborative projects, I will be incorporating domestic abuse awareness and education alongside the work I already do in mental health and disability advocacy. While Let’s Talk North East CIC has a strong focus on mental health support, I am proud to now also offer: • disability awareness and understanding • domestic abuse awareness a...

I do not condone hate campaigns at any level. I understand that some supporters are angry about the mistreatment I have received from #Retrophiliac, but if we respond by treating others the way I was treated, then we are no better than the behaviour we are calling out.🙌🏻 Under no circumstances do we retaliate with harm. If others choose to act in harmful ways, that is their responsibility — not ours. We do not mirror harassment, abuse, or intimidation. What happened to me was genuinely distressing, and I do not minimise that. But I will not endorse harassment of any kind, even when emotions are running high. Integrity matters to me more than outrage. I believe in accountability. I believe in boundaries. And I believe in karma. Sarah Wingfield  Independent Disability Advocate  #disabilityinclusion #strongertogether #disability #disabilityawareness #disabilitysupport #disabilityrights Alt text: Soft, gentle illustration symbolising emotional exhaustion and healing. A calm, pas...

Twisting the Narrative: People have continued to alert me that Retrophiliac is still twisting the narrative and producing judgemental content that has directly contributed to real-world harm against me. At no point did I say that any disabled person is intrinsically better than another. What I stated — clearly — is that the message matters more than the money, while also affirming that disabled creators absolutely deserve to be paid for their work. What disabled creators do not deserve is for larger pages to prioritise monetisation so aggressively that they demand content be removed unless it benefits them financially, or to weaponise their platforms by spreading false narratives that result in smaller creators being harassed, abused, or financially penalised — as I was. This situation was never about denying payment to disabled people. It is about values, ethics, and responsibility. When a platform is used to harm rather than help — especially by targeting smaller advocates — the issu...

Low Spoons, Real Impact Hey everyone, Today is one of those days where unnecessary negativity has drained my spoons faster than I can replenish them. I’m struggling — but I’ll be okay. I’m trying to anchor myself to my to-do list, because there are things that need doing and people I don’t want to let down. Even when I’m running on empty, that still matters to me. What people often fail to understand is that when platforms and positions are abused — when negativity is encouraged, amplified, or weaponised — it doesn’t stay online. It has real-world consequences. And if you’re disabled, already living with chronic pain, fatigue, and limited capacity, those consequences hit harder. I’m not expecting everyone to understand. I’m not even expecting them to care. Some people genuinely can’t — or won’t — see beyond themselves. But right now, I do need extra support. Not because I’m weak, but because I’m tired. Tired of constant battles. Tired of hate. Tired of being treated like a “nobody” peo...

When larger pages target smaller, genuine advocates and spread false narratives, they don’t just create online drama — they trigger hate campaigns with real-world consequences. If she truly cares about disabled women being paid for their work, then why have her #flyingmonkeys been encouraged to harass me, and why has my #monetisation now been directly affected? Retrophiliac cannot credibly argue for disabled women’s financial empowerment while simultaneously contributing to actions that undermine a disabled woman’s ability to earn. Yesterday, she publicly attacked and misrepresented me. Today, I am financially penalised as a result. That is not advocacy. That is harm. Sarah Wingfield Independent Disability Advocate P.S. It’s a good job I care about people more than profit, isn’t it? #disabilityinclusion #strongertogether #disability #disabilityawareness #disabilitysupport #disabilityrights Alt text: Screenshot of a monetisation status page showing the name “Sarah Wingfield” with “Main ...

Yes I am aware Retrophiliac has changed the narrative and is also lying about me on their page. Disabled people deserve to be paid - absolutely - so why is Retrophiliac changing the narrative to bully and harass me and make money from people's hate? I’m FULLY aware that the narrative around this situation has been changed and that inaccurate claims are now being shared about me. I do not condone hate or harassment — especially not from disabled people towards other disabled people. While the core point being raised is valid, the way this situation has been handled is not. When disabled advocates attack other disabled advocates for attempting to promote and uplift them—particularly when platform limitations (such as Facebook not allowing reshares) are the cause—this should never be turned into false or hateful narratives. Creating or amplifying misinformation to drive engagement, attention, or financial gain at the expense of another disabled person is not advocacy. Encouraging peo...

Mental Health, Softness, and Letting Myself Be Human Some days I am strong in ways people can see. Other days my strength is invisible — quiet, internal, and misunderstood. Living with disability, neurodivergence, chronic pain, and a nervous system that has been through far more than it ever should have been, means my mental health doesn’t exist in neat boxes. It ebbs and flows. It reacts to the world. It responds to kindness — and it also reacts to harm. And that’s not a flaw. That’s being human. For a long time, I thought I had to prove my wellness. Prove I was coping. Prove I was resilient enough, calm enough, polite enough, palatable enough. I thought that if I just explained myself better, softened my words more, tolerated more, then things would be easier. They weren’t. What did help was learning something far gentler: I am allowed to take up space exactly as I am. My best does not look the same every day. Some days my best is advocacy, creativity, writing, supporting others, and...