PGP / SPD My story:

 I woke up shaky and in agony and with a cold, feeling achy and heavy but other than that I'm good. 😊 I'm not gonna let me being ill ruin my mood!  Meditation music and take it easy day! Sending love to everyone at All Disabilities Matter as I can't make the carvery with you all today. Sending so much love to you all and hope you have a fantastic meal together! ❤️ I have a mental health appointment today and my whole body is screaming at me for doing too much so I'm going to have to rest. Sometimes I forget how bad my flare ups can get in winter, but I'm thankful for the pain management I have now, so I'll get legally high to endure it and make it through! To be honest, the cannabis has helped me with my anxiety too, more than sertraline, but I still take it, it's just nice that it can help with that as well as my bad pain condition, because I didn't even realise it could! I'm liking the clinic I'm with and it's worth every penny because it ...

"Protected by good deeds" They'd rather pretend they didn't do it and hide behind good deeds. Never apologise as long as they're worshipped, that's all they need. Special little moths that are attracted to their flame, Never actually knowing it's THEM that are to blame, No accountability just threats and secrecy, False martyrdom to fool society,  Claiming they help with the struggles with economy, Yet they're free to bully, hate and scapegoat anyone who thinks freely. We say NO to your attitude and NO to your abuse. Being in a good professional career is never an excuse, Others may lap up the help and excuse how you treat people they don't know, But just like you, they don't care, they only help to put on a show. Reputations built on a false foundation. Attacking those vulnerable, without cause or provocation. Don't speak out though! 'How dare you speak badly of them! They help so many people! So we won't let you complain! We'd ...

Bishop Auckland Christmas Town: Disability perspective: Accessibility for the disabled was not managed properly. I had to wait in cold weather which is painful for chronic disabilities and pain conditions when you should have a pass system for the vulnerable or disabled. The gentleman joked the queue didn't take long but it was agony for me and seemed to take forever so I didn't even acknowledge him because I don't expect others to understand. It's just a wait for them, for us it's torture, every second is agony. I also could not get tickets at the SAME place for the Ferris wheel or anything so I'd need to queue at a different ticket booth or pay on the Ferris wheel doors, however the queues are unreasonable for those with disabilities and lack of seating available. There should be a second queue that lets vulnerable people on a little bit at a time with others from the main queue, this would increase accessibility no end! When we booked at the desk no one state...

Getting sick of seeing police in different areas of this country let abusers and nonces off Scott free cause they cba to retrieve the CCTV which is part of their bloody job! I've had two situations where they were negligent and let it be deleted/recorded over, and I've read so many posts where others have had the same. One minor, female, was SA'd on a bus and they just let the bus cctv go *poof*. Most police I've met have been bloody awful (just experience) but some I've met have been actually decent people, so why can't they simply just do their bloody jobs and protect people with the amount of CCTV around these days?! And they wonder why people start filming incidents, it's cause they don't do what they're supposed to and it's the ONLY way people these days can obtain justice or evidence!!  I'm actually glad I can't go for the csi job, want nowt to do with police, don't appreciate how they can't get simple CCTV footage...like......

 In the spirit of my overseas friends and thanksgiving I wanna give thanks: To those who accept and embrace me, quirks and eccentricities and all. To my parents and close relatives and friends, for caring about me and being there for me, the support is greatly appreciated. To my son whose growing into such a handsome little man, and sue me, but I'm so proud of him! He's amazing! I'm thankful for my warrior soul and determination, through suffering and sacrifices galore, I've made it here today and I'm walking with a stick now. I'm thankful for those who see me for who and how I am and although I'm not perfect, I'm honest, kind, loyal and caring and I'm always working on myself. I'm grateful for the opportunities I've had and going to college. I'm thankful for all my online friends and family and I love you all just as much as my irl friends and family, may you have positive vibes sent your way and have a fantastic thanksgiving! I'm gr...

 I don't think people realise how painful it is to watch people who seriously wronged you, didn't apologise, put you through absolute hell, act completely kind and nice to everyone else, but you, despite you being a stranger and despite having being a vulnerable woman who merely tried to seek help. I can't help it if my heart hurts. 😩 I can't help it if they're willing to treat others with the same kindness they should have shown me, and my heart is sad for those who aren't as lucky, and were treated poorly like me.  They'll go through the same thing. Reminded every time they see someone be helped, that they were refused, judged, attacked, instead. I can't help it if I am reminded of the abusive situation every time they pop up online. What I CAN do about this, is remember that I didn't deserve it and despite it feeling like a thousand needles in my chest everytime I wanna 🩷 like 🩷a post cause they're helping others, and show my support, they ...

If you have a chronic pain disability like me, you may find yourself in your head more often, especially when you are trying to handle your pain in public, like college, transportation, buses, and outdoors. You are more aware of others around you because you're self-conscious of your pain, when in actuality most of the time others won't have even noticed. I mask well most of the time but get wriggly and need to stretch and massage legs and things when I'm worse. I sit there and I think to myself " Why aren't I stronger , why can't I manage this better?" I don't want to have to p a c e myself. I don't want to have to have rest days but the problem is it's necessary . I can't change it and thinking negatively about it doesn't really help. At the moment I'm working on forgiving myself and being kind to myself for the way that I handle my pain because sometimes I am ok and other times I am simply just not coping or I'm drained or ti...