Hit crisis again:
Hit crisis again... Crisis line has had me make a gp appointment for meds again so I've done that and hopefully that'll help but I'm phoning the Goodall centre as I've been referred for secondary care for all my trauma there - and everything else that's going on right now is too much - and they're just not answering. Twice the calls ended. I feel like a burden and like no matter what I do I'm made to feel like I don't matter.
I'm also very scared with everything that's happening with regards to disabled people and our rights and I know I'm not alone with this and I am also scared because of all the targeting and abuse I've had to deal with recently. I just know things could be so much better - but people don't seem to want to be better - they seem keen on harm and it's heartbreaking.
I literally don't feel like I fit into this world and it constantly won't make space for me. I wish I wasn't struggling - but I am so I'm going to take some space and try and take time to heal and fix myself because I need to be able to cope with abuse and sabotage better than this.
I need to be okay.
Sarah ❤️