I'm Tired of Fighting:

 

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I'm Tired of Fighting

I’m so exhausted. Genuinely, deeply, soul-worn tired.

Not because I’ve been lazy. Not because I’ve avoided life.

But because I’ve had to fight through too many things lately that I never asked for. Battles I didn’t choose.

People I tried to trust letting me down without so much as a sentence to explain why.

I try my best. That’s the truth of it.

I set small goals, manageable ones, things I can hold onto when the world feels too big and the weight too heavy. I try to be consistent. I try to be kind. I try to wait patiently for people to show up for me — and they don’t.

And what cuts deepest isn’t just the absence, it’s the silence. The lack of basic respect. The lack of care.

I'm tired of being treated like I don’t matter.

I'm tired of feeling like I have to prove I deserve the bare minimum — communication, inclusion, decency.

As a disabled woman, this world feels brutally unkind. And the irony is, I advocate for a better one.

I use my time and my limited energy to fight for fairness, for justice, for voices that are ignored or crushed.

I speak up. I show up. I sacrifice.

But still, somehow, I end up being turned into a villain in other people’s stories.

And I’m not a villain.

I’m not anyone’s enemy.

I never have been.

I’ve only ever wanted support. Help. Acknowledgement.

To be treated like I matter, because I do matter.

But right now, it feels like the more I give, the more people take — and walk away.

And I’m left, again, to pick up the pieces alone.

It’s a lonely, bitter cycle.

I am trying to keep going.

Trying to hold on to the goals I’ve set.

Trying to believe that all the work I’ve done, all the pain I’ve endured, will lead to something better.

But today… today I just feel run down. Worn out. Heart sore.

Because life has not been fair.

People have not been kind.

And I am so, so tired of fighting for what should be basic.

I know I’m not alone in this, even if it feels like it sometimes.

And if you’re reading this and you’ve felt the same — I see you.

We deserve better.

But for now… I just needed to say it:

I’m tired. And I want peace.

I want space to grow without being dragged down by other people’s cruelty or neglect.

I want to succeed. I want to live.

I just wish the world would stop making it so hard.

I haven't done anything to deserve how hard life is currently treating me.

Sarah Wingfield 🌹