How do you keep going?

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Someone asked me how you can go on when you're fighting a never ending battle:


I can try and answer it - I take each day as it comes. Break down my struggles and tackle them to the best of my ability myself. You keep going - especially when you want to quit - more so then than ever, rest and hit pause and then back at it.


I sorted out my pain management - hospitals never helped so I did it myself. Found something that works for me from a private clinic. This opened doors for me - helped me study and achieve more.


You don't stop and you pick yourself back up whenever you're at rock bottom. 


Everyone who's abused me - would love for me to quit, from the social workers that told me to unalive myself because disabled people should not be allowed to be parents when my son had cancer to those who are misusing policies to silence me as a disability advocate.


The obstacles are always there - but how we respond to them is what truly matters - some battles we win and we break through the obstacles - others we lose and that's still a lesson and a blessing.


I'm used to corruption and unprofessionalism - it's nothing new for me but I won't quit and as long as I breathe I will fight for myself and for others and our rights.


I was in a groundhog day for over a decade - stapled to a mattress - wasting away - no one wanted to help so I got ankle weights and I screamed and cried through the pain and I regained muscle from leg muscle atrophy and got myself a walking stick.


My life IS pain and obstacles but I am here for a reason and if I challenge something then maybe it needs challenging! I share my experiences too because I don't want others to endure what I have and if they have to - I want them to know they're not alone.


I'll never live properly - my body always my torture chamber - but I'll still live and survive and achieve things - because only I can control my life and I learned how to help myself in a world that abandons us.


I'm no longer alone now, I'm glad about that but if I ever was - I know how to survive now and survive I will.


Helping as many people as I can in the process.


Sarah x




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