Sunlight, Sand, and the Spaces Between Pain:
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An image of a blue sky with white and grey clouds, featuring a large cloud at the bottom. A grey transparent text box with two curved corners displays the title: “Sunlight, Sand, and the Spaces Between Pain” in white font. The alias “Kawaii Doll Decora” appears in white along the left side and inside a white heart on the right side.
Sunlight, Sand, and the Spaces Between Pain:
I’m grateful for still being able to make a positive difference, to uplift others, to be as weird and creative as I desire, and for the little things most take for granted.
The swaying of tree branches and leaves in the wind. The bird song most people never hear. The sun or the moon and the way their light hits the clouds, shifting the sky into endless colours.
I can be outside now, instead of stuck in a room. I can feel the wind on my face—even when it hurts my body. I can feel sand and grass between my toes, and every second reminds me just how precious these little moments are.
I had missed them with every fibre of my being. Even though I have to rearrange some things and cancel others, I believe in something bigger than myself, and I trust the universe to guide me, to show me my path.
I have purpose now, and a million opportunities to cherish the small things. So yes—even when I’m at rock bottom, even when my pain wins—I am still grateful. Grateful for all the moments I’ve clawed my way back to experiencing.
I am very grateful.
Independent Disability Advocate
